The Story of Jung Dahee [EXO]

Entry # 5: October 28, 2011

October 28, 2011

Dear Diary,

Today was Insoo's birthday. It was a good thing the school made the semester break early. I'm free for 18 days until November 14, 2011, which is the day after All Soul's Day. Sigh. It's not that I resent that day or anything... It's just that I'll be seeing my relatives again since we usually go there together as a family. Aish. I shouldn't be thinking like that. I have to be there to pay respects for my deceased relatives. Anyway, I went home to Busan today. I was happy on the way, yes, but I wasn't expecting the warm welcome I'll receive once I get home. Guess what? It was my *coughs* brother *coughs* Daehyun shouting at my mom. Like seriously? You call yourself her son? What's more is that he yelled at her because mom didn't give her money unlike me who had a credit card? I admit that I felt kind of guilty. I am willing to give him the credit card anyway (since I don't use it at all), but rage was built up inside me thinking how disgraceful he was acting yelling at someone who gave birth to you just because of money. Sigh. I guess money can do a lot to you.

Love, Jung Dahee

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SCENARIO:

I am on my way home right now at Busan. It was pretty crowded at the train station as well as the bus terminal today since it's a holiday. Luckily, I got on fast before more passengers come since I kind of woke up early today (which is a miracle).

You all are probably curious what happened to me and Yixing? Well, let's spell awkward. A-W-K-W-A-R-D. Yup, we were awkward, or rather me. I began to shy around him since the whisper incident. I still can't get the what-ifs off my mind. Mind telling me how?

Sigh. You can't blame me though. I'm just a normal university girl who had no boyfriend since birth. That's pretty embarrassing for a girl of 20 years of age. I am a nerd. I don't really live off of books but I definitely looked like one. I am a kdrama addict. Most of the men out there don't find that attractive. I am a kpop fan, which I'm 100% proud of, but most of the men (my male relatives) I know don't really like fans since they find them like lunatics and obsessive people who are crazy enough to stalk idols. Well, that is not true. We have lives too. Pssh. I bet they were just trying to talk me off.

Well, back to Yixing. It became really awkward for me ever since the incident. I always find his little actions romantic, even the tiniest bit of things like lending me his pen or letting me borrow his notes. 

Ok, let's just say my feelings kind of grew for the past 3 months. How can't I when we were practically glued together since we only have each other. That is until 2 weeks ago. He started hanging out with other boys from our block section. You see, I always wanted to major in Financial Accounting, but he wanted to major in Marketing since he's very good with interacting with people. I'm not a very good talker, which I bet you already know, and I am not that crazy to follow his footsteps just because I have a crush on him. Oh, fudge. Did I just admit it? Pssh. Anyway, the boys were named Tao and Kris. They were both Chinese and wanted to major in Marketing as well that's why they clicked. Plus, they all have their own family businesses that's why they grew closer.

You can say I was left alone. He would sometimes accompany me though, but he hangs out with the guys more often. I started to question myself if he really likes me. My heart broke of course at the possibility. He would always be by my side if he truly liked me right? I could see that he and the boys were frequently having a boy-talk. I would accidentally hear the names like Seohyun and Yoona, but I don't know the reason though. Maybe the other guys like them? Or Yixing? No. He likes me... right?