The Story of Jung Dahee [EXO]

Entry # 18: March 25, 2013

ENTRY# 18

"All life demands struggle. Those who have everything given to them become lazy, selfish, and insensitive to the real values of life.

The very striving and hard work that we so constantly try to avoid is the major building block in the person we are today."

~ Pope Paul VI

~~~~~~~~~~

March 25, 2013

Dear Diary,

A smile doesn't mean that a person is fine with everything. Likewise, a laugh doesn't mean that a person is happy with everything. In fact, that person might be hurting inside. Moreover, you might be hurting her even more without noticing; or maybe you know, but you act like you don't. Basically, you might not know her, so do not judge. You don't know how it feels like to have many eyes on you everytime. You don't know how it feels like to have someone who hadn't talk to you eight years, and to think that he's family makes it even worse. You don't know how it feels like to have those friends who are willing to leave you behind when problems arise. I know. I'm dumb, I'm weird, and I'm sensitive, and I'm so sorry for that. If I could just end things right this instant, I would. However, how could I when I don't even know where to start?

Love, Jung Dahee

~~~~~~~~~~

SCENARIO:

Today marks the end of our second year in college. Honestly, I had been feelings quite sad today. I don't exactly know why, but I had this gut feelings that something bad will happen today. I don't know why though. Shrugging the feeling off, I decided to get ready if I didn't want to be late. After doing my usual daily routine, I grabbed my bag that was placed on top of my study table and left the apartment. Of course, that was not before I made sure that all doors and windows were properly locked, and that all electricity had been turned off. Like the old folks would usually say, it's better to be safe than sorry. Whilst humming to Super Junior's Sorry Sorry, I decided to send a text to Daddy Long Legs.

   Noodle Legs (03/25/13, 7:25 AM) : Daddy long legs! Save me a seat in class, okay? Or else I'll take all your p*rn away.

Grinning in satisfaction, I pressed send. I stuck my tongue out at my phone out of weirdness and placed my phone back in my pocket. I then took a glimpse of the time indicated in my wrist watch and sighed. Huffing, I decided to make a run for it or else I'll be really late. I felt a long vibration from my pocket indicating a notification, so I stopped to breath for a while and took out my phone. The class can wait. We have nothing to do anyway. We're basically just having a consultation period for today, and being the good student that I am, I decided to attend it even though we were not required to. After all, I have to be sure of my grades. I'm a student with an academic scholarship at that.

I frowned as soon as I read the message on my screen.

   Daddy Long Legs (03/25/13,  7:26 AM) : Can't, noodle legs. I'm not going to school today. I have a date.

He has a date? How come? I hadn't heard something about Mr. Park Chanyeol having a date with a girl though. He didn't even acknowledge the word 'p*rn'. My frown got deeper the longer I think of the situation. I felt like he was keeping things away from me. I mean, out of the blue, he has a date? To top it off, he didn't tell me? Why? Am I not that worthy of a friend for him? Sighing dejectedly, I typed my response and grudgingly went in the university. I guess I have to deal with all these consultations for the whole day. The other girls weren't going to school as well. They weren't a fan of consultations; plus, they're basically fine with whatever grades they will receive. They're intelligent girls after all. They don't have anything to be afraid of. I, for one, have a scholarship to maintain. It's not like we're poor or anything, but I want something relevant to put in my resume when the time comes.