The Story of Jung Dahee [EXO]

Entry # 17: January 10, 2013

PS. I MADE A MISTAKE AS I POSTED THIS CHAPTER LAST WEEK.
I ACCIDENTALLY RE POSTED THE LAST CHAPTER.
MY DEEP APOLOGIES, and A BIG THANKS TO @LICORICELOLLY FOR POINTING IT OUT.
Anyway, here's the real update!

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ENTRY# 17

“It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.” 

― Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

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January 10, 2013

Dear Diary,

It's been three months since the incident. Lay and Jessica have been hanging out most of the time. I've been seeing them together for thrice a day I guess. I've seen them hold hands as well. Jealousy would be an understatement. Well, I honestly don't know what exactly I should feel. For one, I'm still confused. That little incident had been etched in my mind since that day, and I honestly can't think straight with it. My grades have been falling a bit, and sadly, I lost my scholarship by merely three points. Yes. Three more points and I could've maintained it. Fortunately, my parents were fine with it since we're the fees weren't exactly a problem. We can afford it actually. On the bad side, well they were clearly disappointed. I can't blame them though since it's 100% my fault. I just let my guard down, letting other things mix up with this stupid feelings. I should really stop thinking about him. Yes, I should. But how?

Love, Jung Dahee

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SCENARIO:

It has been exactly three months since that incident, yet I'm still confused. I've talked to the girls before but they seem like they were as confused as I am. Even the wise Sulli didn't know what to say. Victoria, on the other hand, had her own assumptions, but then again, I just shut my ears off of her words since I didn't want to jump to any conclusions. That girl seriously causes a lot of trouble. As for Luna, well she just kept quiet though, as if she was solving some police case or something. In addition to that, I've asked Chanyeol as well. We've been as close as ever so I decided to trust him with my personal issues as well. He wasn't really sure of what he meant by 'that' statement he said, however, he believed that Lay was jealous of something, which is either me, or with Chanyeol. Wait. That sounds wrong. What I meant was that either he's jealous of Chanyeol and me, or he's jealous since I've replaced Chanyeol as my best friend. Further, the oh-so-wise Chanyeol told me that he wouldn't just ignore me all of a sudden and spout that statement without any basis, meaning that Lay has been bottling something up.

Well, it is all confusing, and honestly, I don't want to jump to conclusions, but I'd go with the latter. Maybe he's just jealous since I replaced his place for Chanyeol. But then again, it's neither mine of Chanyeol's fault. It was his fault for forgetting me in the first place. Plus, he was too busy with his Jessica to even notice his own best friend. What was I supposed to do? Should I have waited for him like an idiot? No. I will never to that. As gullible as I am, I have my own pride. Furthermore, I didn't even do anything to make him ignore me in the first place. If he was really that jealous of Chanyeol with either of that excuse, then he could've just talked it out with me then the issue would get cleared right away. Is he an idiot or something? Sigh. He's seriously frustrating. I've never had a boy friend before, and I honestly didn't expect myself to even fall for him. This is seriously frustrating.

Deciding to forget about those things, I decided to just head off to my class before I get late. I stopped by my locker first to drop and grab a few things at the same time. I had to carry off my laptop and three heavy books, so I decided to leave some of my unnecessary things behind to make it as light as possible, if that was even possible. After finishing, I hooked my bag with my semi-heavy laptop on my right shoulder and carried my books in my arms. I stumbled a bit because of the weight, but nonetheless, I handled it. This girl's got some muscles, you know.