Reservations- A Joshifer story

And it's not the end of the world

So Holly is helping me on this chapter so yeah:) This chapter is dedicated to HollyBethanyPayne as she votes like every chapter also is helping me write this.

Josh's POV

I knock on Claudia's apartment door. She opens with a maxi dress with a brown belt, and brown gladiators. I smile and kiss her cheek. She locks her door and we link arms.

"You look lovley tonight, Claud"

"Aw thanks babe" She kisses my cheek.

All she thinks it about herself, i'm quite annoyed now.  I shouldn't be horrid to her, this thought of Jen keeps coming back. We get to my car and I open the door for her as she get's in. I run round to my side of the car and get in.

Jen's POV

We pull up outside the restuarantand grabs the handle of my door. He helps me out he is such a gentlemen. We walk inside. It has a massive chandelier in the center, it look's so beautiful.

"Welcome to Spargo,Do you have a table reserved?" The lady said with a big smile. It made me smile.

"Yes under Hoult, thank you" Nick says.

"Follow me this way"

The table is by the window so we can look out at the sea. It was sunset. I watched with an unwavering gaze, as a fiery red orb of light slowly sank beneath the horizon, and threads of light lingered in the sky, mingling with the rolling clouds. I forgot Nick was sitting right infront of me. I was in my own world looking outside.

"You ok?" he says in his posh english accent as he holds my hand.

"Yeah...i'm fine" I sigh, I don't know but I didn't feel myself today "Can we order some drink, please?" I was getting rather thirsty.

"Yes course" He puts his hand up in the air for a waitress to come over to us.

"Yes sir what would you like?"

"Please can we have a bottle of champagne?" Nick says as the waitress is writing it down.

"Jen is champagne ok...Jen...Jen" I could hear Nick saing my name but I was concentrating.

Concentrating on a man wlaking through the door. A man you look's handsome in a grey suit with balck shiny shoes. I can only see his back. The women he was with had a yellow maxi dress with a brown belt. What a combination. Ewww it look's disgusting. Least she has confidence in what she is wearing. I don't feel confident at all. The man turns around. Josh. Josh Hutcherson. The waiter takes them over to a table opposite side of the room. Thank goodness. He helps Claudia sit down. Claudia. He was ment to be dumping her for me. Not sounding horrible, I love him. She gives him a kiss on the lips. I want them to be my lips.

"Jen, you ok? You zoned out for a bit" He sighs "Do you wantt champagne?" 

"Whatever" I'm getting jealous. Jealous. Me, never. Oh I am jealous.

The waitress walks away from the table. Josh has got Claudia a bunch of roses. They are beautiful. She starts to cry. Typical.

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.

All you can do is be someone who can be loved.

The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care,

Some people just don't care back.

And it's not the end of the world.

I read the poem through my mind. I stand up as my chair squeaking across the shiny floor. I walk past Nick heading for the door. When Nick grabs my hand.

"Where are you going?" His sorrow in his eyes.

"GET OFF ME, I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE" I scream in his face, everyone in the restuarant is staring at me, even Josh.

I take one glimpse of Josh and race out the door. I swing the door open. I find a brick wall around the back and fall down so my back is on the wall. I cry in pain. How can Josh ever love me. He went back to Claudia, why didn't I see that coming. I hear footsteps coming towards me.

"Jen" I look up to see Josh standing there.

"What do you want?" Why him.

"What is wrong Jen?" He says sitting beside me.

"Nothing, now can you go away"

"There is someting wrong, I won't go unless you tell me" He says putting his arm around me.

"Fine just stay there" I say removing his arm.

"Is it something I have done?" His eyes are filled with tears.

"Well done, you got the answer right" I say sarcasticly as standing up and walking away.

"Tell me what I did wrong?" He grabs my wrist, I turm towards him. He is crying now.

"Fine...I have feelings for you, ok! I thought the kiss this afternoon would make you realise but no you went back to Claudia" I started to burst out crying.

"I-I-I..." He dosen't know what to say.

"Save your shit for someone who cares" I walk away. I felt really bad. I thought he would follow me but I was wrong. Nick came out, what does he want. 

"What you doing?" He asks me.

"Calling a cab"

"I can take you home"

"No thanks, can you leave me alone" I look to find Claudia comforting Josh as he cries.

I started to run down the street. I find the nearest cab station as my phone has no signal to call.

I was sat in the cab. Just thinking of how I left Nick there and how I was mean to Josh. I paid the cab man and ran to un-lock my door. I open it. I made sure it was locked before I went up to bed. I wwnt into the bathrooom. My mascara was running down my face. I started to scream at myself. I laid there on the floor. With tears running down my face. I shouldn't do this but I find a sharp raser and cuts my arm. The blood comes oozing out. All over my dress and the light blue rug in the bathroom. I don't know what I had just done. I lay there on the cold flooring in my dress with blood surronding me. I never want to wake up. Suddenly I saw darkness.

So there is that chapter. Well I have just realised my nine chapters equal to two days in the story. So from now on every chapter is a day in the story. I wouldn't want Jen to harm herself but it fits in with my story so sorry.

xoxox