Reservations- A Joshifer story

Always

From now on every chapter will equal a day in the fanfic. I will try to do more Josh's POV but if I change it to Jen's POV it is because it goes in that bit. Have you seen the recnet Joshifer pics!! oooooo:) Joshifer is happening.

Jen's POV

I'm sweating...why am I so hot...then I open my eyes and it's the sun, oh my god it's bright. I turn to the left and see I pile of blood on the rug. It has dried up. Will it ever come off. I don't know. I try to stand up but my legs are like jelly. I slowly walk out the bathroom and down the steep stairs. I tripped on the last stair and fell two the ground. I realised I have my shoes on from last night. I took them off and chucked them across the room, which smashes a glass vase. It shattered around the front door. I stand up. I will leave the smashed glass till later, I need to clean up the blood. I go to the kitchen and get the cleaning things from under the sink. In the bathroom there is my bathroom mirror. I look there. I stand there. Is that me.

Ugly.

Whore.

Fat.

Worthless.

Broken. 

Pathetic.

Disgusting.

I don't know how much I can live like this. I kneel on the floor and start to scrub the blood clean but it dosen't work.

Josh's POV

I wake up to find my eyes red raw. I have been crying. I can't help think what Jen said. Was it my fault.

Nobody's falut but mine for my heartache this time.

I can't really remeber on what happened last night. All I can think of is that after Jen left, Caludia got me a cab take me home as I was un-capable to drive. That reminds I need to go and pick up my car from Spargo. I  am still in my suit form last night. I change into some joggers and a white v-neck t-shirt. I spray my linx. It smells good though. I slip on my trainers, get my car keys and ring for a cab to take me to Spargo. In the cab I ring Jen but there was no answer. I reach Spargo and get into my car. I need to ring Claudia to see if she is ok as last night didn't go to plan.

"Hey Claud"

"Heya"

"I'm really sorry for last night"

"It's ok" She didn't seem very pleased.

"What you doing today?" I say trying to keep the conversation going.

"Nothing much"

"Fancy doing something?"

"Well...go and see if Jen is ok, I think she needs a friend"

"Ok"

"Bye" And with that she hung up.

She was kinda right Jen might need a friend. Yeh but not me. Should I. I don't know. Maybe. Yeah. No. I don't know. If I don't go I will never know what is up with her. Right I will go to Jen's.

There’s nothing I could say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried

Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go

I know I let you down but it's not like that now

This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart