Reservations- A Joshifer story

That house

Sorry I didn't update yesterday, I was at my Nan and Grandad's. So tired been horse riding and went to the beach. Worse thing is I have got school tomorrow, ugggghhhh

Josh's POV

I can't help but feel that i'm not suppose to be with Jen. She barley talks to me now I have told her how I feel. I know she will be waking up next to Nick. I have this feeling. I need to find out if she is because if she is I will leave her be. She left yesterday at set, I don't know why. We shouldn't of done what we did. It just makes us awkward. I decide to ring Jen, I need to know. 

"Josh" A mascaline voice picks up.

"Jen?"

"It's Nick, Jen is just busy at the moment" I sigh in anger "Shall I pass on a message?"

"No no it's fine, anyway I have to go bye" I hang up the phone.

Why am I angry. Jealous. No I can't be. Well she is with Nick not me. So I just carry on with life. Claudia. I haven't spoken to her in a while. I will see if she wants to hang out.

Jen's POV

I leave the doctors, I have depression and has constent panick attacks. The doctors have perdescribed me with some tablets that I have to take twice a day. After the doctors me and Nick  have to go to set of X-Men just to film one last bit of the film, then it is finished. Another film done.

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I just want to go home after filming. I'm so tired. I tell Nick I don't want anyone here tonight. I just want to be by myself also I have to promise I won't do anything stupid. So it's me in a big house alone. Anyway got some interview to do tomorrow and the days after. Then in about a month going to Paris to start Mockingjay part two. So excited. Then I have to go back to new york for X-Men premiere then back filming. Got some busy months coming up. 

I fancy ringing Nick as really scared in this big house. I have been here ages and still scared.

"Hey Nick" I got no response.

"Nick?"

"Yeah" He sounds a bit quiet for usual.

Then a female voice says "Nick, I have a surprise for you"

Nick is cheating on me.

"Who's that?"

"Errmmmm"

"Don't ermm me, Who is it?" I started to cry. "NICK"

"Sorry Jen-"

I hung up the phone before he could finish. How could he.

I grab my car keys and run out the door. I don't bother locking it. I started to drive. Where was I going. I don't know. I have a habit of running out the door and driving in my car. My car stops at a house.

Josh's house. Why did I come here. I think I should turn around but I don't. Even though we have a little bit of awkwardness. He listens to me and I need a friend at the moment.

It takes me a little while to get out of the car and pick up the courage to knock on his door. He dosen't come to the door. So I turn around and walk down the stairs at the frount of his house. 

"Jen" I turn around. "What's up?"

"Nick is cheating on me, I have depression and panic attacks and I have feelings for you" I let the last one slip out of my mouth. I blushed of embrassement but I soon fall to the ground in tears.

"Jen" He rushes of to me.

I feel myself falling back. My body was weak and I couldn't breath. Not a panic attack. No. Josh's arm pick me up bridal style. He takes me up to his room. I get placed on his bed. I start to breath heavily the room is spinning and I can't see. I sweat from the dizzyness. It will stop in a minute ir usually does. Josh is holding on to my hand while I lay on my back.

I wake up to find Josh still holding my hand.

"How long have I been out for?"

"About two hours"

"And you have stayed there"

He nodded. He is so kind and caring that is why I love him. But I can't though. I stand up as need to get out before aything happens.

"I need to go home"

"Jen, you can't go home like this"

"I have too"

"I'm not letting you, yes it has been awkward between us but you can sleep in here and I will sleep in the spare bedroom"

"Fine, but I will stay in the spare room"

"No you can have the bigger bed" He gives me a smile. He picks me up and places me on the bed.

"Here wear this" As he passes me a big t-shirt of his. I was still in my jeans.

"Thanks"

"Right anyway night" He gives me a nod.

"Josh, wait" I run over to him.

I gave him a warm embrace of a hug. The fireworks go off in my tummy. It is such a werid feeling. I only get it when I am with Josh. Weird. I pull back from the hug. His face was only inches from mine and the warmth from his breath lit me up like a candl. A rush of sparks started in my chest and slowy spread through my body. I could feel his eyes watching my every move, from the slight twitch of my lip to the way my shoulders rose and fell as I breathed. He leaned forward slowly, his hand brushing the hair out of my face and in an instant his lips were on ine. They were spongey and smooth, they were perfect. He moved them around in circles and my heart swelled. It was magical. I had to move away though. I turned and walked over to the bed. He gave one last glance and walked out. He's just. I can't think of a word. Like a fisherman relling in a fish.

I will update tomorrow probably staright after school as my Mum needs the laptop. Right going to watch Pretty little liars as Holly recomended it so yeah

xoxox