ONE MORE LIGHT (Watty 2019)

LINE OF SIGHT

Mia
I stared at the white wall with my knee near my chest and my phone next to me on the floor. It's been four days since Jake left me. I feel terrible for whatever happened. I messed up and there's no turn back.

I never left the room and kept waiting for Jake to call. I know he is angry but at least a call to make sure he is home safe. Cameron kept knocking on the door. I could not face him too. He blames himself for Sam's death, my break up with Jake and now with me staying in the mental health care for month. It was my job to tell him the truth but Jake did it.

I kept on thinking when I heard footsteps coming towards the rooms. Then a soft knock on my door. "Mia....Mia please let me in....talk to me." Cameron said sadly. I looked at the door not moving and heard him breathing. I kept sitting on the floor and heard Cameron sliding his back through the door as he sat down.

"I'm sorry Mia for everything." He whispered with his voice shaking.

"It doesn't matter what I do or who I choose. I don't really know what's wrong. I don't know what to do. If I'm not hurting myself I'm hurting everyone else. I'm broken" I cried resting my head on my knee.

"No please don't. Mia ever since the day I saw you i felt everything and I get it if you don't wanna be with me anymore. All I want is for you to be happy. I love you Mia and I promise I will make it up to you." He cried meaning every single words.

"I want you to know that it was not all a lie. Not with you" I replied back.

"Mia" I heard another familiar voice. God I've missed him. "Dad" I said as I quickly ran to the door and opened it to bury my head in his chest.
"Hey its ok sweetheart" He said comforting me. "Yeah I know i just love you dad" I whispered.

"Hey you wanna know something great I came to fetch you. I'm taking you home." He smiled at me and I turned to Cameron who looked down sadly. "Mom?"

"I will take care of her but for now let's get you back ok" He walked into my room trying to search for my bags.
"Dad?"
He turned to me confusingly.

I stepped back to Cameron as he looked at me sadly. I gently grabbed him hand as we both look ad my father. "I'm gonna stay here for a few days if that's ok with you?" I asked as Cameron smiled. "Ok fine Cameron just..." Dad said as Cameron replied.

"Yes don't worry I'm gonna take care of her." He looked at me with a face face. Dad left the room after some minutes as I turned to Cameron.
"Are you sure about this?" Cameron asked worriedly. "I'm scared that I'm not really myself and when I'm with you I feel safe and stable" I explained when Cameron immediately hugged me.

MAY STEEL
Flashback.
I sat next to Sam's bed knowing he would never forgive me. Seeing him with all this tube entering his body make me want to scream.

I kept on looking at Sam. I've missed him and I left him on his birthday. He of all people should have been happy. I failed him. I left him behind. He saw so many things and kept it for himself.

And now he is stuck in that bed suffering all alone. I grabbed his hand gently avoiding to hurt him. "I know I've not been there for you the whole time. I'm really sorry Sam. But please come back let me show you that I can be a good mother" I whispered trying hard not to cry.

Crying I front of Him is the last thing you wanna do. I guess I failed. "He can't make it this time May. He's dying" Will came. I looked at the doctors' notes for the last time reminding myself what they said this evening.

"I can't switch off the machines Will. What if he wants to fight?" I protested. "Look at him Honey he is tired, hurt and in so much pain."

"We need to let him go" He cried.

"You never let us down Sam. And I know is hard to fight. If you wanna go i want you to know that It's okay honey. It's ok. You don't need to worry about us. We all understand sweety. We'll be fine. Your mother loves you. Daddy loves you and....and Mia loves you" I cried with his weak hand on mine.

I cried as I looked at my son one more time. I hugged my husband as he grabbed me in his arms crying uncontrollably.

End of flashback.

I still have Will and Mia but I can't move on. I left them all alone. I need to tell Mia the whole truth. I need to get her back. This is what Sam would have wanted.

I entered Sam's room sitting on his bed. " I miss you" I said and lay on his bed. "It's so hard without you" I said.

"I promise you I'm will make it better." I rested my head on Sam's pillow. His scent full in the room.
I let myself cry when I felt a hand from behind. Will.

I interwine my hand into his as we both rested our head on Sam's bed.
"I'm so sorry" I cried as he hugged me tighter. I could hear him crying himself too.

"I would give everything to see him once again" I said with a shaking voice. "Shhhhh I know..I know" He whispered. We let ourselves cried for a moment and slowly fell asleep.

May's Dreams.
I walked inside the house to see little Mia hugging Will. "Mia" I called her and followed her outside the house to see William preparing for barbecue.

"Hey your home early" Will gave me a quick peck on my forehead as I search for Sam. "Where is Sam?" I asked. "Upstairs sleeping" He said and continued with the barbecue. I quickly walked upstairs entering Sam's room.

I saw the Crib that Will and I bought on Christmas. The whole room were decorated with pictures of Mia and Sam's baby photos. "Sam" I searched for him under the bed when i felt his presence. I quickly turned around to see teenage Sam standing and smiling at me.

"Hi mom" He walked to me. "Hey there" my voice cracked. "I'm so happy to see you." I hugged him.
"I love you mom" He whispered as I cried hugging him tighter.
"It's a dream right?" I asked disappointed with the fact that I have to let him go. "Yes it's a dream. But I need you top know that I've been here the whole time." He cupped my face as tears fell down my cheeks.

"It's not your fault mom"

"I'm sorry for not being able to fight back" He cried. "No no its okay you were in pain" I caressed his face.

"I need you to move on mom. I want you to let go of the pain. Mia needs you mom. You need to take care of her. Please mom" He cried.

"I will. I promise you son." I said.
"Please come back home." I asked.

"I can't. I'm sorry mom. But you still have Dad and Mia." He replied sadly when a bright light appeared in the room. I knew exactly what it was.

"I need to go mom." I stepped back looking at me for the last time as i did the same. I have to let him go. This is what he wants. I looked at him as he smiled. I wiped my tears and smiled back at him for tbe last time ever.

"This is good. That's is all I ever wanted. We'll be okay" his last words before he disappeared.