The Amity rebel

Chapter 7

The car ride seems like it takes 4 centuries of utter quietness. Until finally my mother says something.

"Cassandra I know you're worried."

My mother never, and I mean never ever, called me Cassandra.

"Why the sudden sophistication?"

"I'm just trying to help you."

"It's not working, no offense."

She sighs and keeps her eyes locked on the road.

"I'm sorry."

"For what?" She says still not making eye contact with me.

"Being a jerk when all you wanted to do was help."

"It's ok."

All though she doesn't take her eyes off the road, I can sense a bit a relaxation in her tone.

We finally pull up to the parking area.

I just awkwardly sit in the car and don't move until my mom points something out.

"Go," she says like it was obvious.

"But what about you?"

"They send the kids and parents in separately."

"Oh ok," I say opening the door and getting out of the car.

Hoping she can't hear me I walk away and mumble under my breath "but 16 year olds aren't kids."

I approach the huge building in which the choosing ceremony will begin.

All the factions are lined up together, so I wander over to the amity section. They very slowly let the line move into the building, but it takes about 5 minutes for me to get in.

As I walk in I see my mother standing on a chair looking for me....and my dad is also there.

I run over to them and navigate my way threw the long line of people.

I finally get to where they're sitting and sit in the chair my mother saved me.

I was already nervous about today, but the fact my dad was here sent 4 million more butterflies into my stomach.

"Where are the girls?" I ask my dad finally able to get something out of my mouth. I almost have to shout because of all the noise.

"I left them with Jenna," he says smiling back at me, his voice is so deep and loud that he doesn't have to yell.

Jenna is my big sister who choose Amity 5 years ago.

I nod and sit in my seat again.

It takes about 30 minutes but they finally get started.

As usual they start with abnegation first, then candor, the erudite, then amity, then dauntless.

They call up a couple hundred boys and girls and it takes about 2 hours but they finally get to amity.

"Tyler James." Says Jeanine, the leader of erudite and also the head of pretty much all things that have to do with computers or technology.

I see a skinny tall blonde haired boy walk up to the bowls. He takes the knife, cuts his wrist, and without even thinking twice he puts his arm over the dauntless bowl and the blood drips from his wrist in the bowl of burning coals. I can hear crazy, loud screams and yells coming from the dauntless area. One of the members jumps up and leads the boy to where he's supposed to sit.

As they call about 30 more people, I barely pay attention to anything else. Just that one boy and why my mind is so focused on him. Something about the way he so bravely chose dauntless. Like he didn't have a single worry in the world.

Finally after what seems like 10 years, they call my name. I hug my mother and dad extra hard, my dad doesn't know I'll never see him again, it almost brings me to tears, but before I can get the chance to cry like a 5 year old, I stand up and walk down the stairs toward the stage.

With my hand shaking I slowly pick up the knife and cut my wrist. It stings at first but nothing to bad.

Now came the real hard part, my family or me.

How selfish did that sound, of course my family!

But then again do I want to live the life I'm living right now for the rest of my life?

I can feel the eyes of every single person in the building looking down on me.

I finally make my decision and hold my wrist over the amity bowl.

I wait for several seconds as the blood drips down.

Millions of things race threw my head and I can feel my body shaking. Just as the blood is about to drop into the bowl I quickly move my hand over to the dauntless bowl. The blood from my wrist drips onto the hot, burning coals, "what have I done?" I whisper so that only I can hear.