And you decided whether you saw beauty or destruction

Broken curses

(Disney)

Thisone's for "jellybop" ao3     

How long had it been?

A week?

A month?

A year?

A decade?

That last one sounded more likely, ten years of this odd immortality, ten years in this state of numbness, ten years where he just... existed.

Or maybe it had been more than ten years, it was hard to tell, Connor couldn't move, couldn't talk, and couldn't even open his eyes.

He knew his family was still in power, they had to be for him to still be here; and that meant they were still looking for his true love.

Connor had never been in love, not in the way books and people insisted it worked, but he had someone he loved. He was the heir of a neighboring kingdom, his name was Evan Hansen.

They had only met a few times in person, but they corresponded frequently, sending birds so no one else would know of it. Only now that Connor was in this state, his family had most definitely gone through his room, so maybe it was less them not finding Connor's true love, and more them trying to deny what was right in front of their eyes because it was different.

Connor wouldn't say what he felt for Evan was love, but he would say it. How else was one supposed to describe the way he felt while reading his words? The yearning to be there for him, there with him, to hold him close and never let go.

Even if they barely saw each other, how could the way Connor's heart leaped at every letter he received be anything other than love?

He had time to ponder about this, as barely anything happened around him, sometimes, if he was lucky, he would hear his sister's voice. Zoe would tell him how things were going in the kingdom, how bad the last batch of suitors had been; but she never mentioned how long it had been since the previous visit.

Connor had grown used to it, to being like this, to the idea that he would continue to be like this for a long time, maybe forever. A sudden noise broke him out of this trail of thought, and then a soft gasp, before a set of hurried footsteps approached him.

"Oh Connor"

Even if he had only heard it a few times Connor would've recognized that voice anywhere, he suddenly despised his inability to open his eye; he wanted to see him.

"I know I'm not supposed to be here, but they said- and I thought... I don't know what I thought"

Connor wants to move and wrap him in a hug, because Eva sounds so distressed. He hears as the other prince catches his breath, having most likely to sneak into the tower, god, Connor missed him. Could you miss someone that was right there?

"Look, this might not work, but I couldn't just... leave you here, not if I can do something"

Connor felt his heart rate rising, could hear the beating in his ear drums, and then there were lips against his, soft and warm, such a striking comparison with his own. He was sized with the need to do something, anything, to move before he unwillingly broke Evan's heart, he wanted so badly to kiss back; he needed to, oh god.

'Please, I love him'

His hand moved up, weakly and slowly, until it met Evan's arm, startling the other prince into pulling away.

"Connor?"
his eyes opened for the first time since the curse, and he got to see Evan, wondrously surprised, staring at him; he smiled.

"Hey"

Evan smiled back, overjoyed, and leaned until their foreheads were pressed together.

"I'm so glad"

Connor moved to try and seat up, Evan immediately gave him a hand, there were a few tears streaming in the other's face, but the bright smile signaled that they were happy ones; still Connor gently wiped them off, causing Evan to chuckle wetly.

"I love you"

Connor's voice was dry, and gravy, and hard to get out, which made sense after so long without using it. Evan still gets a wider smile, and leans over for another kiss, this one's more active than the last, and when he pulls away his eyes are half-lid.

"I love you too"