Stepbrothers (Paused!!) (Editting!!!!)

Chapter 17

Kissing him is all I can think about now a days, Angel. but that feeling won't go away. I can't shut my brain down so I don't hear it protesting that its wrong. It wouldn't be my first kiss anyways. So what's wrong g with that? Everything. I've kissed someone before. Yeah, I remember it was all because we where playing a dumb game with my friends back when we where I'm 8th grade. All 8th graders do dumb things. Well not all, but that day I did something dumb. Very dumb.

My first kiss was with a classmate. I can't really remember his name, I think it was Kyle. He was all shy at first and didn't wanna play, but they all forced him to. Then we where dared to kiss. He wanted to chicken out and so did I, but for some reason I didn't think It was that big of a deal. Just a kiss. Just my first kiss. He saw me all confident so he did it. It was pretty fast I was inexperience at first and when I started getting the hang of it he pulled away quickly wiping his lips away with the sleeve of his sweater. After that he was my major crush, but then he hurt me. By the time I got to highschool he was long forgotten.

I sit up from my bed and check the time on my charging phone besides my bed. "Shoot!" I mutter. I'm gonna be late. I change into my clothes for the day and run into the kitchen to look for something to eat. Angel rushes in behind me and takes out the box of cocopuffs. "Are you going to school today?" I ask with a little hope. Its already been a week since he hasn't and school doesn't seem very fun without him. Even if we don't hang out together it still affects me somehow. He nods his head "yeah, I'm ready now." I bite my tongue to avoid squealing. "Hurry up before we are late!" I jump up and serve myself coco puffs too.

We walk side by side to the bus. I sit on my special seat and look out the window to avoid any eye contact with Angel when he passes by me because he hates people seeing us as together. I don't really see what's wrong. I mentally kick myself. Okay, okay I do care to. I care because I see him as something else. Not my brother.

I feel someone flop besides me. Its Angel. "Hey..." He says awkwardly. "Hey" I answer back as I turn my body to look behind me. His friends are all distracted with each other. "Why aren't you... Sitting over there" I point behind me. Angel glances back and then makes eye contact with me again. "They told me before I came here that they weren't gonna hang with a weak kitty." I shake my head slowly. Yeah I understand what he means. I lost a few of my friends too. "Yeah they aren't those cheesy friends who will take care of you."

"Yeah I get you." "I'm really curious to know who told them. Whoever told them is a jerk" jerk.... Oh yeah. Everything seemed to freeze. I can't believe I'm the one who's gonna get mad at. I didn't mean to tell everyone, I was just freaking out. The boys where all acting normal and I just couldn't take it. My face feels hot all of the sudden and my mouth is soon dry. "Y-yeah" I'm the one who told everyone what happened while you where gone since I didn't assume I'd bother you. I think, but do not say.

"I will find that person and beat them." He clenches his fist so tightly his knuckles turn white. "Do you know who it was? Was it Luke!?"

"N-No" I stutter trying my hardest to not look frightened or guilty. He rubs his face roughly and let's out a loud dramatic sigh. "I think I have an idea of who did it." I feel a guilt lake in my stomach now. I want to tell him. I really do, but the words are stuck and I'm afraid he will hate me forever if I tell him it was me. Sooner or later the truth with be revealed either way. I just need a little bit of time.

***

"Hey are you okay? You look kind of pale." I turn to my side to find Katie. "Yeah, don't worry about it." I answer closing my locker. "Don't worry, its not my day either, Carol and I are having some issues." She says looking down at her fancy men shoes. Ever since she began dating Carol her outfits look more formal and Masculine. Well that look really suits her too. "Aww, I'm so sorry to hear that. You two make a really cute couple." Katie nods, "She doesn't wanna admit that her body is perfect and she keeps starving herself." My stomach swirls. She's a bit skinnier than me and I find myself perfect, well size. I see many flaws in myself. "I want you to convince her to stop doing that. Do her parents know about it? We should get her help." Katie kept her gaze down. "I'm afraid she'll wanna break up with me." She mumbles quietly as if she is gonna cry any time now. "We need to get her help and that is more important. I'm sure she will thank you in the future, and I know she won't leave you." I speak everything that I can think of to cheer her on. "Hey, how is Angel?" As soon as she changes the subject I see them. Travis and Noelle walking by us holding hands. She laughs and leans on to him pressing her now dyed blond hair on his shoulder. What's weird about her is that she changed her style. Now she's the cheerleader happy girl with a jerk right by his side.

"It was you wasn't it?!" I hear Angel yelling out as he approached them. "You some how found out and told everyone!" He continued yelling. Everyone's heads turned to their direction. My eyes wide in fear and I hadn't realized I was holding my breath too.  He pushes Travis causing him to almost fall. Angel's strength very powerful when it comes to fighting. Travis laughed trying to ignore the fear he felt. Noelle stepped away and covered her mouth with both hands shook.

"Do you really think I cared so much about you to tell everyone?" Travis said pushing Angel towards my direction. He almost stumbled and landed near my feet. He sat up straight and stared at me wide eyed with a disappointed face. It really broke my heart to see him this way. "No! I don't believe you Travis!" He swung a punch, but one of Travis's friends chimed in and pushed him to the ground. The same guy who tried to hurt me in the party Travis took me too. He went down and punched Angel on the face multiple times. What hurts the most is that I'm here standing not knowing what to do. My feet are stuck to the ground and all I see is Angel getting beaten badly. Angel grabbed him by the shoulders and threw him off and stood up. He turned to Noelle. "And you? What's... All of this? Your ticket to the throne? You said that you loved me." Noelle stared at him with a blank face showing no expression. She didn't care. She never did. Not the way I do.

Angel took a step closer to Noelle and them Travis swung at him and pushed him down. "We don't Care about you Angel! We never did! But we aren't the monster that lives in your house who told everyone you where at the hospital for being weak! Shes the one who passed out as she told everyone." Travis smirked at me and Noelle put her on her cold grin too. Angel stood up quickly and was the last one to look back at me. His eyes looked so hurtful. My mouth is dry which makes it impossible for me to speak. What else could I say? Thats not true? He tried to punch Travis, but he grabbed his arm with both hands and stretched his wrists. Angel winced and screamed in pain as his sounds where slowly being forced open. "Stop!" Noelle yells fiercely. Everyone stopped for a moment and then he finally dropped his hand. The sound of formal shoes thundering though the halls as many teaches arrive late to break up the already over fight.

I notice something horrifying. Blood was running down Angel's fingers. "Angel your bleeding." I say surprisingly loud enough, but he ignores me. I wonder how long this is gonna last. He's probably gonna hate me forever now. I feel a hand on my shoulder. "He will be okay soon." Katie says trying to make me feel better even though we both know I messed up. Carol walks past us ignoring Katie. She glances at me with one sorry look. "Its okay you need to talk to her." She starts chacing her almost before I finished my sentence.

***

Then whole day was so miserable, I just couldn't wait to get home and so I did. My mom is to busy to notice me walk into my room and slab my door shut. I collaps on my bed and cry on my pillow until its all soaked. I keep repeating to myself. What have I done. Soon there's a knock on my door and my mom comes in. "How did you get in here?'" I speak fast. My nose feels moist with tears and my cheeks are sticky too. I'm not a very pretty crier. My face all turns red and puffy. "You left the door unlock silly." She says with a calming voice. Her hand meets my head and she starts playing with my hair like she used to when I was little. Her face looks worried. Its been looking that way since Angel was taken to the hospital. I just haven't had the time to ask her what's the matter.

"Angel hates me."I cry on her lap. "siblings get mad often, but they can never stay mad forever. You'll see." Siblings. My stomach feels sick whenever she refers Angel as my sibling. "I-I have homework." I get up and pick up my backpack from the ground. "Do you need help?" My mom offers. She is very intelligent, but she didnt go that far to highschool and I don't think she will help much. "no its okay thank you though." I kiss her cheek.

Later on before bed time I catch Angel. I've been to afraid to knock so I take this opportunity. "Hey how's your wrist?" My voice trembles at the beggining. He doesn't say anything. "I'm sorry." I finally say. sorry. Is there another word more meaningful? Sorry sounds so weak and pathetic. "I trusted you! I can't believe you told everyone!"

"I didn't mean to... I was just so angry." "you didn't even go visit me. You where there at the hospital too because of your stupid break down!"

"I'm sorry I'm so sorry! Do you hear me? I didn't mean to."

"Okay fine. Just get out of my face and don't ever talk to me again. Now leave me I have a therapy session in a few hours." He shoves me out of the way. I notice Luke peaking out  the door. "Luke-" I say, but he shuts the door quickly and locks it. I can't believe it. I pushed my mom away and everyone is avoiding me now.