Stepbrothers (Paused!!) (Editting!!!!)

Chapter 18

Its been three weeks since Angel hasn't talked to me. This is all my fault. If only I didn't reveal anything personal. I haven't tried talking to him either because I'm afraid that he will yell at me. School has been hard too. My grades are dropping severely, but I'm not feeling the need of putting efforts into them. My mom is shutting me out again, she's always busy dealing with stuff other than me. Mr. Rivers is usually at work and comes home late. Luke and Mark have been playing video games longer than usual to avoid me.

"Colleen can we talk?" My math teacher asks me after the period is over. I nod and slowly approach her knowing what will happen next. My grades, I know I know I'm doing terrible, but what else can I do? "Colleen I see your grades are slipping. Why is that?" She asks adjusting her glasses trying to look interested in the story I'm about to tell. "Nothing, just family problems. The whole step dad and siblings is really affecting me."

"But you where doing so good when you first came." She points out. "I guess back then I didn't think my mom would actually wanna marry another man." My grip tightens on my backpack strap as I try to keep calm. The teacher nods and looks down at her desk trying to look for some wise positive thing to say. "Well we all have our bad days don't we all? I hope you feel better." I nod my head and walk out of the room without turning back to say goodbye. Angel isn't at school today. He had an early therapy session and an appointment, plus he didn't wanna go to school today.

I haven't seen Luke around either. I wonder where he's hiding. My eyes scan the school, but he's nowhere near found.

  I see Katie in my second class. She sits next to me and we work together on our assignment. "How are you and Angel doing?" She asks whispering very low so no one else could hear. "I don't know. We haven't talked." I look down and continue working. I feel her eyes staring at me with concern the way my mom does when I don't look very happy. That was a long time ago though, now she doesn't check my arms the way she used to, I could have a whole new collection of them now and she wouldn't even notice. "How is your girlfriend doing?" I ask changing the subject before I have the chance to cry. "She's doing fine, but she still doesn't stop spitting out the food when we go out for dinner." I sigh and look at the paper and the problems I do not understand. Maybe Katie's girlfriend needs support from specialists.

During break I'm surrounded by Travis's stupid group of friends. "I didn't see Angel today, is he at the hospital again? Oh how I'd love to send him flowers." One of them says. I glare at the entire group. "Tell Angel he has a hot sister." Another one says. He grins with evil pleasure.  Soon Noelle appears too. "Stop waisting your miserable time with this trash of a person." She glanced at everyone to make sure they all heard. "Tell me Noelle, what does it feel like to date a monster of a person?" I refer to Travis who isn't here at the moment.  She shrugs and smiles care free, "I don't know, but one things for sure its better than dating my own step brother." She winks and leads the way to her little crew members.

I hold in a sob. The lump on my throat makes it unbearable for me to swallow. Why am I so weak? Why can't I just fight back. Can't believe she thought I was dating Angel. I would never date him, he's my soon to be brother. Besides every time we get close I don't feel right. Is it because I feel guilt? Guilty because I'm lying to myself and it's so hard to resist that all I  want to do hold his hand and kiss him. I want to get to know him better, but that is impossible now because he hates my guts. I don't know if he'll ever forgive me.

I come home to an empty house. Mr. Rivers is working, Luke, Mark, and Angel locked themselves in their rooms right after coming home from school. My mom left a note for me on the fridge saying she'd be out to buy some groceries and that she left food in the fridge for me to heat up and eat. I opens the fridge, but there's nothing there. Mark or Luke probably ate it all all ready.