♡How I Found Him♡

Songs,lyrics and feels

School ends and I drive home listening to my heart music collection,which included
-Cabarat~Azizi Gibson "cause love is relentless and it kills in no question. It couldn't give a shit about defence."
-Come and see me~PartyNextDoor" Shit just got real,things are intence now. Things change,feelings change,people change too. Never thought the circumstances would've changed you."
Dont~ Bryson Tiller " Certain its your love that keeps me togather."
Grass ain't greener~Chris Brown "ain't nothing good about being real. You do what you want with someone else,I'm done baby. You acting like you've been a player .The grass ain't greener on the other side."
I hate you, I love you~Gnash " I miss you when I can't sleep,or right after coffee. I miss you on my right on my front seat. Do you miss me like i miss you. I just miss you in my arms. Said you wouldn't by you fucking did. Lie to me,lay with me get your fucking mix. Now all my drinks and emotions are just a fucking mix"
Poetic Justice~Kendrick Lamar " they say  communications save relations I can tell. I can never right my wrongs unless I write them down for real. Love is not just a verb its you looking in the mirror."
Losin Control~Russ "She's falling but she doesn't think you'll catch her. Cause her last relationship was a disaster. Accusationseveryday she didn't know why. All her calls would be ignored he's on his own now. Should have ended it before it started,all she ever got was broken hearted. He was cheating on her and trying to flip it. Back on her like a victim.Now she is all alone, and atrting over. Now she got baggage on her shoulders. But the new guy really loves her,she loves him too but she doesn't trust herself anymore. She is falling in love now Losin Control now. Fighting the truth,trying to hide but don't think its alright now. Despite her past she cant help the attraction. He tells her that's he's nothing like her last one. He redefines in every way what love is. She fell for him and hasn't gotten over since. Every now and again she goes off though,beating on his chest like a bongo. You understand she is coming from a hurt place. Answers all the questions in the survey. Doesn't get jealous,doesn't break trust,doesn't call her hoe after hang ups. Give her everything she ever wanted. Even though she feels haunted she is falling in love now"
Love Galore~ I said farewell,you took it well promised I won't cry over spilt milk. Why bother me when you know you don't want me? Why do you bother me when you know you got a woman? Why you bother me,why you bother me,why you bother me last time I checked you were the one that left,me in a mess. Me in a wreck"
Love on the brain~Rihanna " Dont you stop loving,don't quit loving me. Must be love on the brain,that's got me feeling this way. It beats me black and blue but he fucks me so good and I can't get enough. Must be love on the brain. I'm tired of being played like a violin,what do I got to get in your motherfucking heart?"
Privacy~Chris Brown "Know my loving dont change. I don't really  give a Fuck what the haters say. Cause you fine baby, and its alright cause you all mine baby."
Figures~Jessie Reyez- I gave you you ride or die and you gave me games of figures. I'm the one crying cause you just won't change your figures. I wish I could hurt you  back. Love what would you do if you couldnt get me back? You're the one whose going to lose,something so special,something so real. Tell me boy how in the Fuck would you feel if you couldnt get me back?  You say sorry once and you think its enough? I'm willing to stay cause I'm sick for your love."
Fuck it~Jessie Reyez"Roses and whisky I bet that you'll miss me  no doubt" all these songs mean some thing to me and the way their lyrics spoke to me. They remind me of my relationship with Trevor,Benjamin and Linda. Everything has just been a blur ever since this year has started. I met this hot guy who isn't surprisingly cocky and self centred but rude when he wants to,I broke up with my boyfriend of two years and got involved with Benjamin. Honestly this year is a rollercoaster ride and you know what? I'm willing to stay in this blur until the ride us over. I get home and quickly take a shower and wear a jumper reminding myself that the girls are coming over real soon. I look out my window just to get some fresh air and feel the cool breeze on my face. My thoughts trailer back to moments I shared with Linda,like the day me and Trevor broke up. Those moments just showed me that he is a very nice person who is mysterious though. Linda is undeniably handsome and he has this cold poker face that makes  everyone scared of him,but once you get to know him,you get to see a different person who is still mysterious yet you see a kinder and more chilled side of him. Linda is a kind yet rude at the same time but one thing is for sure he is very lovable.
"What's on your mind beautiful?" A voice interrupts my thoughts,a voice belonging to the person I was thinking about. I turn to look at him and take in his features. His wearing a white t-shirt with black pants and a Nike Cortez,a gold chain hanging around his neck and has  his matte black shades on. "Like what you see? Take a picture it lasts longer you know" He says in his refreshing voice. I roll my eyes "You not worth having a picture on my phone." I say. He touches his heart "ouch that hit me deep"  I laugh lightly.
"What are you doing out here any way?"  I ask.
"Same reasons as yours. I was just clearing my mind,I have a lot of things doing rounds in my head right now." He responds and lights a blunt. I'm amazed by the fact that he smokes and immediately I disagree to what his doing.
"Care to share? And since when do you smoke?" I question
"Why is it hard to find 'the one'? And I don't see the need to explain myself to you." The part hurt me but i didn't show any signs of it.
"Well it really isn't that hard to find 'the one'. We the ones who make it hard for ourselves. 'The one' might be the person you see everyday and spend time with. You might be blinded by the fact that you think that the person who loves you is out there but in reality they right next to you. They are just right under your nose and  by the time you realize it, it might be too late cause   you might have loved the same Person who is in love with you  too and thought they didn't love you back and  you saw it fit to move on with  life. While we were busy chasing someone who we think is worth our time we are actually pushing the people who really loves us away causing them pain. "