WAIT. BEFORE YOU ATTACK ME (she says to non existent readers) LET ME EXPLAIN WHY I PUT MENTAL ILLNESS IS QUOTATION MARKS.
so lately a lot of people have been asking me if i'm depressed, idk if to feel offended or...., and my answer always is: i'm "depressed".
why is she downgrading her emotions you may ask?
BECAUSE I DONT KNOW IF THEYRE REAL OR NOT THATS WHY.
mental illness (MI cause i'm tired of typing mental illness over and over) has become commercialized. and it pisses me off. now a days basically EVEYONE is depressed or has anxiety or something else. yes i understand that it is possible that a large majority of people can be depressed. but you can tell when it's a bucket of bs.
i also comprehend that our generation will probably have higher risks or depression and anxiety due to social media etc BUT SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST UPRIGHT FAKING IT. and it's so obvious.
now now. i'm not judging anyone. but let me set the scene.
say you are in a group of friends right? you has experience with depression and understand what it truly feels like. you're talking to your friends about said depression and one friend just says, "yeah like i get depressed all the time. ."
now i'm not saying that person isn't depressed but i'm not saying they are either. ugh this is hard to explain.
like there are some people that you just now. for example. ik this girl, for a good six years now, and for the past about 2 years she's been posting this 'deep, depressing' posts EVERYWHERE. i understand that so people deal with depression differently (like me. i play it off, watch sad movies and just cry. rarely i will rant to someone). like my kween dodie, she has depression and depersonalization. but she's very open and brutally honest about it. and it's her way of coping.
but these posts are some of the weirdest and scariest stuff ever. and i'm sure her mother follows her on her accounts. like how can you be comfortable with sharing with EVERYONE that "you're going to kill yourself tonight". i honestly don't see the sense in it. maybe it's her way of coping and hoping that people will see she needs help but i genuinely don't think that's the way to deal with things.
ugh i sound like a judgmental bitch. but this has been on my mind lately. along with other stuff but i'll put those in separate chapters.
alright
see you in the next one
