ya girl is back AND ANGRYYYYYYY
alrightea lil update on life: my mother is a fantastically humongous CUNTry. and my father was born without balls. and vine2 hasn't come out yet (still a lil iffy about that one)
lemme drop some factoids. my mother grew up in the country side of jamaica under strict ass parents and kinda poor conditions. growing up like this has made her grow up with a lot of mislead thoughts and beliefs. so basically my mom was a partier and shit before she had me then she was suddenly the most religious person on earth. and at the same time she mastered being an absolute cunt.
now, no one can ever say i'm being a stereotypical teen and just upset my mother doesn't let me do things. no no. i get the world isn't as safe as it was when the dinosaurs were still alive or whatever, BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN YOU KEEP ME FROM EXPERIENCING ANYTHING AT ALL. i can't even count the amount of things i've missed cause she thought: a) i was going to get raped and pregnant. b)i was going out to have sex and pregnant. c)i was going out to get drunk, get raped, then get pregnant. d) i was going to get kidnapped as soon as i step out of her sight, get raped and then get pregnant or killed. e) i was going to run away from home, and she should be scared cause i have genuinely considered it before.
so a lot of people may be like "oh my mother doesn't let me out either. you're probably exaggerating" HA I WISH.
THE WOMAN HAS TOLD ME TO MY FACE I COULDNT GO TO A SCHOOL FUNCTION CAUSE SHE DOESNT TRUST BOYS. BDHWIQIAHDEH IM AN UGLY PIECE OF SHIT. NO BOY IS GOING TO HIT ON ME OR TRY AND SEX ME UP. TAKE THAT INFESTED DILDO OUT YOUR ASS AND LET ME HAVE A LIFE.
IM FUCKING 17, ONE YEAR FROM BEING 18 AND THREE YEARS FROM BEING AN ACTUAL ADULT. SHE BETTER RESET.
listen. people genuinely don't bother inviting me to shit cause they know the probability of me not going is high. lemme repeat for y'all in the back. MY FRIENDS DONT INVITE ME TO THINGS CAUSE THEY KNOW I PROBABLY WONT BE ABLE TO GO.
and then theirs the constant suspicion that i have a boyfriend, that i'm always lying to her, and let's be honest i probably am, her constant harassing about my weight and the list just goes on and on.
NOW LETS MOVE ON TO MY BALLSLESS SAD EXCUSE OF A FATHER.
now listen, no one loves their dad more than i do. i absolutely used to adore my father. i was a daddy's girl in every sense on the fucking word.
but by the time i turned about 14/15 i realized he is such a push over. he lets my mother walk over him like a fucking welcome mat.
she's constantly belittling him and treating him like a child and not the 40 something year old he is. AND IT PISSES ME OFF. my dad has always given me permission to go somewhere but suddenly when mother say no his opinion disappears. and he doesn't say shut to change her mind but then when she's gone he wants to complain she needs to relax and let me out. HOW ABOUT TELLING THE CUNT THAT AND STOP BEING A LITTLE PUSSY HUH? It genuinely pisses me off so fucking much.
so now i'm not talking to either of them and i can tell my dad is feeling guiltily. cause he never defends me and i'm tired of his bitch ass attitude.
so ya girl finna work hard and get a scholarship and leave her fuckhole parents. i'm gonna feel so bad for leaving my sister with them but i can not stay with them in college. i'm already so close to cussing my mother. imagine me being 21 and her telling me my curfew is 7pm? try to fuck again.
alright i'm feel a little better. but i still feel angry, but it's sunday and i've already cussed a lot so bye.
