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I have a hella overprotective mother so I don't have my phone. SO ALONG WITH MY NEVER ENDING ANXIETY THAT ALL MY FRIENDS SECRETLY HATE ME, I'm v lonely on evenings.
plus I hella miss stalking dodie, who is my queen. you know how legit it is cause its in bold.
I love the crap out of her, cause I found her in a dark ass place and I can relate to her so much and her music is just so real. I cried when her new EP came out (i'm just really emotional ok).
so like my school year has had a crappy start and it's midterm already. my math, chemistry and English teachers are crappy af and i'm gonna fail my end of year exams WHICH DECIDE YOUR FUTURE CAUSE I'M MY TECHNICALLY LAST YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL. jdkscndnosidncs
in other news; I have no crush rn and I've never been more relieved. like rn i'm just like oh this guy is cute so is this one, and I feel like a free woman.
also I cut my hair and my friend keeps calling me a butch, which is furthering my inner-turmoil with my sexuality but i'll just ignore it, like I do with all my problems.
I've been writing a new book, and by 'writing' I mean I still have a chapter to finish that I started two months ago. but I really like the prompt, so i'll try to finish it before the year ends. (my inner voices are cackling).
ive been reading a lot of spam books and their so funny and real and I feel connected WHICH REMINDS ME
I've been feeling hella disconnected lately, like I space out a lot and want to be alone 78% of the time (although this might be my inner introvert hating me cause I've been v social recently). BUT being alone brings dark thoughts WHICH is why I want my phone back, cause using a laptop for everything SUCKS UUUUUUUghggg
I wrote a lot, wowza. I had a lot on my mind which lately has been just a mess. is there a way to organize your brain? someone send me the video tutorial.
um that's it for now?
I might come back cause it's only 10 and I refuse to go to sleep so early.
arrivederci (I've been saying that a lot and I just figured out it actually means bye :) I feel smart)
