Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (Percico)

Chapter Six

Gabe

I cried during this, and it didn't take me long.

Percy played the male lead, which I was proud of. The role fit him pretty well. But there's this thing that was in there, and it hit me. It hit Sally, too.

When Percy was younger, he tried to kill himself. Obviously, it didn't work out and he woke up the next morning in a hospital. But he wrote a note. And Percy put this letter in this musical, switching up the names.

"Dear Evan Hansen," Percy started off as he typed in this laptop. "Turns out this day wasn't an amazing day after all. This isn't going to be an amazing week, or an amazing year, because why would it be? and
I know, because there's Zoe, and all my hope is pinned on Zoe, who I don't even know, and doesn't know me. Maybe if I could just talk to her. Maybe nothing would be different at all. I wish everything was different.
I wish I was a part of something. I wish that anything I said mattered to anyone. I mean face it, would anyone notice if I just disappeared tomorrow?
Sincerely,
Your most best, and dearest friend, Me."

Fucking bawled my eyes out, and not just because of the acting.

That was one of the scariest nights I've ever gone through. Having him in the hospital because he tried to kill himself when his mom was gone for a few days.

I didn't sleep for a week after that happened. I was in the hospital as much as I could be the three days before he was let out. After that, I was afraid to go to bed. I didn't want that to happen again. For him to think that everyone had been asleep so he could hurt himself. So that way, Percy could cut, he could pop pills, and do every other thing that we never caught.

That wasn't the first time it happened, either. Nor was it the last.

They uh... They did a really good job with it, though. With the show. Percy's always been a really good actor. He's also able to cry on command, which helped with this role.

I had realized we were still holding hands when they went up to do their bow. And after the bow, we waited a minute for it to clear out.

"Hey," Sally whispered over to me. "Are you hungry?"

"A little," I whispered back, unsure as to why we wer whispering. "Why?"

"Do you want to go out to eat after this?"

"I'd love to."

Percy

I was nervous, because now Mom and Nico get to be introduced to each other. Which, they know each other. But Mom doesn't know he's my boyfriend. And plus, Gabe has to meet him in person. They've talked over the phone once.

I saw my parents walking over and it was fine and dandy, until Gabe and Estelle saw Chiron and Gabe just kind of pretended like he didn't and Estelle yelled that she wanted to ride the pony.

That was only a little embarrassing. We're all lucky that Chiron has a sense of humor and just laughs whenever somebody calls him a pony.

My parents and Estelle found us, and Estelle pointed at Grover.

"Llama!"

I did laugh when she said that. But I didn't feel that bad, because even Grover laughed. My mom did, too.

Mom gave me a hug and she gave Grover a hug. It was the three of us here. And I don't think Nico was expecting anything, especially considering she doesn't know we're dating.

So when my mom hugged him, he gave me this look, confused.

Gabe leaned over to me, knowing my mom didn't know yet, unsure if my friends knew.