Lovely~Richie Tozier {2}

09. What's Wrong With Me?

Richie and Victoria sat awkwardly on Richie's roof. They each wanted to say something but felt like they couldn't.

"How was your sleepover with Bev?"

"Good. How was yours with the boys?"

"Good...what'd you and Bev do?"

"Nothing much. We painted out nails and talked about...girl stuff" Vic explained.

"Why are we both acting so awkward? I know why im awkward but why are you?"

"We need to talk"

"About?"

"The other night.....im sorry for acting so weird" She sighed.

"Don't be. Im sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable" He concernedly said, placing a hand on her upper thigh.

"You didn't!...I just felt weird" She shook her head.

"Why?"

"I don't know. I guess I felt more guilty than weird.." She shrugged.

"Don't feel guilty...but if you ever feel uncomfortable please tell me. Don't feel forced to do anything because I would never want you to feel that way.."

"I know you would never do that Rich" She smiled, grabbing his face in her hands. She pecked his lips softly.

"I love you" He said in adoration. He was completely whipped on her, he couldn't function without her and he relied on her more than he would like to admit.

"I love you too" She smiled, kissing him once again. She was just as bad as he was. She didn't think it was possible to feel this strongly about anything but she definitely felt it with Richie. "And just so you know, I wanted to do something. Im not sure exactly what I wanted but it was something"

"Hey, don't worry about it. We can wait" He reassured. She smiled at him and fixed his glassed slightly before kissing him once more.

"How long?"

"As long as you need"
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"What's going on with Logan?" Victoria asked Peter and Daniel the next day at school. Logan had avoided everyone that day and didn't sit in his usual spot in science class.

"Don't know. He hasn't talked to anyone since Friday. We went back to my house and hung out for a while and after that he started acting weird.." Peter explained.

"We didn't do anything to piss him off...maybe something happened and he needs time alone" Daniel suggested and Peter and Victoria agreed.

What they didn't know was that Logan was having a very hard time accepting himself. His father, a preacher was very conservative and believed many things Logan wasn't too fond of. His mother was a sweet woman but his father pushed his beliefs onto her. Logan was bisexual and he had developed a crush on Peter. He felt wrong. He felt like it was his fault and like it was some sort of sickness because that's what his father believed. Liking someone of the same gender is totally okay, nobody has control over who they fall in love with but Logan had a hard time believing that. Logan had never felt more alone in his life.
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At lunch Victoria had picked at her food. She was worried about Logan, he was her friend and she hated the fact that she couldn't help him.

"What's wrong babe?"

"Nothing...it's just that Logan has been acting really weird and no one knows why"

"Oh...well why don't you talk to him?" Richie asked, looking over to where Logan had been sitting by himself.

"Yeah, okay.." She nodded, kissing her boyfriend on the cheek before getting up and walking over to Logan. She sat across from him and let out a loud sigh to gain his attention. He refused to look over at her but smiled lightly when she sighed loudly once again.

"Yes?" He asked and she scoffed.

"Don't 'yes?' me mister! What's going on?"

"Nothing" He lied.

"So you're just ignoring everyone because of nothing?" She asked in disbelief.

"I just don't wanna talk about it" He sighed.

"Okay...but if you ever need to talk to anyone im here" She smiled.

"Thanks"

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"Can we talk?" Victoria asked Richie as they sat in her room watching movies.

"Yeah..what about?"

"Do you still see it? Cause' I do" She said and shuddered at the thought of the clown.

"I have dreams about it....if that's what you mean"

"Well yeah but I see him too" She confessed.

"When's the last time you saw him?"

"W-when my mom left to Mexico. He was standing on the other side of the street and he was watching me"

"He's dead."

"How can you be so sure?"

"We watched him literally crumble into pieces!"

"What if it was a trick?! I-I mean how else do you explain me seeing him?"

"Your mind is just playing tricks on you!"

"No! It's s-so real!" She stuttered before falling completely silent. She just looked down without saying a word. Richie didn't know what she was doing but in all honesty she was trying to not cry.

"What's wrong with me?" She whimpered and Richie's expression softened. She sounded so weak, like she was going to break at any moment.

"Nothing, you're just having a hard time processing s'all" He reassured, pulling her into a hug. She rested her head on his shoulder and smiled lightly. He was never going to let her feel alone.

"I loooove you" She said, dragging out the 'o'.

"I loooove you too" He chuckled.

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Logan was walking through town. His cheeks were stained with fresh tears and his breathing was uneven. He took deep, shallow breaths constantly but that only made it worse. He had his hands in his pockets as he continued to walk to Victoria's. He needed someone to talk to and Victoria seemed to be his best bet. He reached up to the house and rang the doorbell. A few seconds she had opened the door.

"Hey Logan" She smiled.

"Hey, im sorry and I know this is sudden but I just need someone to talk to" He shook his head. She smiled comfortingly and nodded, letting him in. She ushered him up to her bedroom where they both sat down. Richie had left about am hour earlier so he could go over to Stan's house and study so it was just Victoria

"What's up?" She smiled.

"I-fuck. Just please please promise you won't tell anyone what im about to tell you" He sniffled.

"Hey, don't worry. You can tell me anything" She smiled.

"Im bisexual. And I have a crush on Peter" He winced and waited for a reaction.

"Oh my god that makes so much sense!" Victoria happily yelled.

"So you aren't grossed out?"

"What? No. You can't choose who you fall for and thank you so much for trusting me with this" She smiled. He let out a breath of relief and tears began to stream down his face. "What's wrong?" Vic asked.

"Nothing its just...you're the first person I told and it just feels so good to say" He smiled and Victoria pulled him into a hug.

"I promise your secret is safe with me" She smiled.

A/N Yikes. I have a plan for where this is all going so I promise the story will get better but thank you all for your positive comments! It really means alot!