The Fan (Fillie) //COMPLETED//

The After Taste

We lay on his bed, in each other's arms, never letting go. I couldn't believe what happened to me a few hours ago. I called my mom to ask permission to stay at Finn's place. I was scared to walk out on the street again, especially at night. What if Finn wasn't there? What if they went further? I shook my head. No, don't think about it Millie. I sigh and lay my head on Finn's chest. His hand was combing through my short-cropped hair. It was comforting, like I was in another universe, a universe with just him. I wish I can stay there forever.

He sits up and I do so too. Our hands were still intertwined since hours ago, making our hands sore but we still never let go. We looked in each other's eyes, shining with admiration and love. I can see my reflection in his eyes, the world warped and bright. He lifts his other hand to my face and cups it. He traces his thumb along my cheekbone. I exhaled and closed my eyes, tilting my head so I can rest on his hand. His palm was soft and warm, making me shiver with pleasure.

He leans in and kisses me lightly on the lips, warm and soft. He retracts quickly and puts his forehead on mine. Our faces were so close to each other, noses and foreheads touching. Feeling his warm breath, I melt into the secret universe with only us again. "Okay, let's go." Finn says, breaking the minutes of silence. I nod and we stand up.

"What do you want to do?" I ask him, no idea what to do.

"Depending on the time." he looks at his wristwatch and then shows it to me. 5:57. "Do you want to watch a movie?" I nod my head again. I didn't feel like talking that much, my throat a little sore from that guy holding me by the neck.

"Do you want to change?" he points at his closet. I nod once again. My clothes were dirty from being pinned against a wall and getting touched by creeps. I am grateful that Finn hugged and laid down with me, despite my dirty clothes. I look at Finn and then to our intertwined hands.

"Um, Finn?" I croak out in a hoarse voice, "I can't change with you holding my hand. And don't think you can be inside this room with me, either." I joke. He blushes slightly.

"Oh yeah. Right." he quickly points himself out of the room and closes the door. I chuckle lightly to myself at his reaction. I remember him seeing me in the alleyway after the fight. I appreciated that he looked away from me, me, when I felt the most exposed in my life. He was like Izzat, respectful and trustworthy . Now I am really glad they didn't go any further. It was the most traumatizing moment in my life, but at least Finn was there to save me from it.

I open his closet to be greeted by tons of clothes, hanging on a rack, folded in some drawers. To my surprise, it was surprisingly clean and organized. I look through his clothes for awhile, trying to find something my size. I open a drawer filled with Finn's underwear. I blush slightly at the sight of his boxers, feeling like it was an invasion of privacy. I quickly shut the drawer and went back to looking for clothes. Finn knocked on the door a few seconds later.

"Are you done yet?" he asks politely from outside the door. I roll my eyes mentally.

"You should always be patient when it comes to women, Finnie!" I shout back to him.

I finally pick a maroon long-sleeved sweater and a pair of black sweatpants. After taking off my clothes, I notice my whole body was filthy. "Hey, Finn?" I call out to him.

"Yeah?" he answers outside the door.

"May I take a shower first?"

"Yeah, sure." he permits. Luckily, he had a suite, so I didn't have to go out in my dirty clothes again. The cold tile floor of the bathroom made me shiver throughout my whole boy. Turning the metal spinning thing, cold water came out of the shower head. Surprised by the sudden coldness, I stumble back and almost slip on the floor but I used my hands to steady myself. I quickly turn the knob so it was warm water. I ease myself into the warm water and relax.

After the shower, I face-palm myself. I forgot to bring a towel. Did I seriously forget to bring a towel? Really, Millie? Now I have to ask Finn. Finn! I inhale through my nose and brace myself. I peak out the door of the bathroom. I call him and he enters the room. He sees my head out of the bathroom door with a look of confusion.

"Millie? What's wrong?" he slowly inches to me but I tell him to stop. I gulp nervously

"I-uh forgot my towel." I look down to hide my blush. I glance up to see Finn blushing as well. He goes to his closet and gets a blue and black (Or is it white and gold?) striped towel. Looking away, he hands me the towel. He goes outside of the room without another word. Dried and wrapped in the towel, I walk out of the bathroom.

That was, by far, the most awkward moment between him and me. I was contemplating if Izzat's and my moment was more awkward while I was getting dressed. The sweater is a little big, the sleeves dangling off my hands and it reached down below hips. The sweatpants were a little big too, but I pulled the drawstrings tightly. I walk out of the room to see Finn leaning against the wall. His eyes lit up when he saw me. He looked up and down at me, but not in a creepy way, more like a reassuring way. I did a little fashion show twirl for him and he clapped sarcastically.

"Wow, Millie," he says, breaking the silence, "you look so... huggable. It looks so huge on you and you look like you're trapped in a bundle of cotton." He had this ridiculously huge smile on his face. I decided to hug him and got rewarded by his smile growing even wider. We intertwined our hands together and plopped on the couch. I wanted to watch Wall-E but he wanted Avatar.

"Grow up Millie! Then maybe you can fit in that sweater." he points at me and I punch him in the arm. "Ow. That was rude" I punch him once again.

After debating for several minutes, he gave in and he put Wall-E on. I started to daydream about what had happened a few hours ago. Now, here I am, snuggling against Finn while watching a movie, like the first time we hung out with each other.

I never thought my life can turn a corner with help from some few people.