When We Collide √

Chapter 67

"There is really not much to know about me I'm obviously just basic," I say and fiddle with my fingers nervously. Amell hasn't spoken a word since the time he mentioned that being different thing and the silence was killing me. "You aren't basic ,"he abruptly replies so subtlety and stirs me up from my thoughts

" What makes you think you'd want to know me?"I ask

"You seem approachable," he answers

"So I'm an easy target ?" I say a little harshly

"Probably," he says and I feel my heart drop

So I'm simply one of his experiments ....one of his many trial and error subjects and then he'll dump me like a used tampon. Here I thought we were getting along and even establishing some sort of friendship.

"Do I look like specimen ?" I ask harshly

"What do you mean by specimen ?" He asks back

"Really Amell do I look that cheap you think I'm so damn so much that you can lure me into you little trap use me and then just leave me ?Well Amell I'll have you know that what you are trying to do is so inhumane ," I blurt out slightly raising my voice ," I refuse to be used Amell and most especially by someone like you ,"I finish and puff out air.

Amell is simply staring at the water his mood has suddenly changed . His face isn't giving away any emotions but I can clearly see his fisted hands. He isn't going to hit me ? Is he ? No he can't possibly do that.

"You sound like I'm asking you out ?" He says and I swear that's the most hurtful thing he'd said this entire time. My heart drops dead literally within me. I don't know why but I feel like crying and I'm literally holding so many emotions right now. I feel angry , frustrated , lied to he probably didn't mean any of those words he said about my hair, eyes and all the other shit. He just wanted me closer so he could satisfy his own needs , he's own fucking selfish needs and being the inexperienced and unworldly bitch I was I came right to his house. I feel a tear drop and I look away. Good thing he wasn't looking at me it would make matters worse

"Then why tell me all those things huh ?What was all that for Amell why kiss me and do it again for the second time ?" I find myself blurting out uncontrollably. I know right now I looked so frustrated and vulnerable even desperate. What was I expecting when I came here a make out with Amell? An invitation to have coffee while he apologised ? Damn I was so stupid

" I don't know I already told you you are different so..."he shrugs casually and I feel my anger rising.

"So you are trying out new shit right?" I ask sarcastically and he looks at me ," I'm not as naïve as you think Amell ,"I blurt out and take a deep breath

"I didn't say you were," he says

"But that's what you are implying ," I shout and his fist tightens. His eyes have become darker and they match the azure sky above us. I had been seated with him for so long I hadn't realised that a lot of time had passed and wasted as a matter of fact.

"This isn't a plot Tracy I'm not asking you out I don't date first of all and secondly I do blondes ," he says in a calm oh so subtle tone and I feel my heart break into a million tiny pieces . The sharp knife that has always been permanently pierced through my heart suddenly twists. I feel the tears and my banks are gradually breaking. He frustrates me he makes me cry , one day I'm breaking down because of him the next day I'm laughing with him he brings out the worst in me and yet he always manages to make me smile, he makes me feel bipolar and I hate him I hate how attracted I am to him how my body responds so quickly to his when he is probably used to that kind of effect.

"Are you seriously crying ?" He asks and I finally realise that tears had been rolling down my cheek the whole time . I avoid his gaze and I wipe the tears furiously.

"So this is all child's play to you ?" I ask amidst sobs by now I've moved a few inches away from him

"That's not what I meant Tracy ," he says

"You know what Amell I'm tired, tired of being belittled and frustrated. Every time I'm with you I have to either end up crying or hurt and I hate it I hate how you always find it easy to intimidate me and make me an object of your amusement. If anything we did didn't mean anything at all to you then fine but it meant something to me , for God's sake you were my first kiss Amell you broke my lips virginity and the worst part is I let you. You bring out the worst in me and I hate you Amell. I'm done I swear just stick to those blonde skunks you always fuck ," I yell and stand up while taking my socks. He doesn't say a word and I don't turn back to look at his reaction. I'm going home whether on foot or on a magical unicorn but one thing for sure is that I had to get away from Amell.

Seriously lips virginity? I do have issues

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This chapter almost made me cry but I still Iove Amell❤😂

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