Overdose Of Love

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Few days later...

1 0 A M

Kimberly

I was up so early, I barely slept.

Just too many thoughts flowing through my mind, I just couldn't. So I went to Wal-Mart, I was undercover, of course, but it was an amazing experience cause ain't no one notice me. I bought all these stuff for my sister, I knew damn well I bought too much, plus, I got clothes that I ordered. Ugh I just can't resist, beybeh clothing is a trap.

I knocked on the door and waited patiently for someone to open up.

The door opened and my mama stood in front.

"Hey Kim" I stood there waving a little bit.

She moved out the way and I held a few of the stuff putting them inside.

"Ari!!

"Xavier" I said hugging him, "how are you?"

"I'm hungry" he complained

"Go get some food then"

"Tyla finished all the cereal" he said in an angry tone

"That's okay, I'll buy you some more. What kind was it?" I asked him

"CINNAMON TOAST CRUNCH" I nodded pulling my keys out

"Kim you don't have to do that" Mama said to me

I ignored her, "You comin wit me or am I goin on this adventure alone?"

"I'll come!!" He put his sneakers on and said bye to mama walking out the house. I unlocked the car, and hopped inside.

"Aye sit in the back" I said in a serious tone

"What? Why?"

"Cause I said so, now go sit in the back" he sighed going in the back, "seatbelt on?" He nodded, "yeah it's on" I could already hear a little attitude

I drove off to the closest store. We bought the cereal along with other stuff Xavier wanted, then we left.

I realized how quiet I was this whole trip, "what's up, Xavier?" He shrugged looking up from his iPad.

"Tired?" I asked as we got to a red light.

"Sorta"

"What about everyone else they good?"

"I guess... Jesus been at the--"

"Field" him and I said together

"Yea and daddy all the way in Europe for his tour" I nodded

"Mama is mama, grandmama is grandmama and grandpa is still grandpa"

"... uncle DK and auntie Stacy still ain't back from their honeymoon, and Royalty is in Texas... and Tyla.... well Tyla is really big"

"I hope you don't say that to her" I said as the light turned green

"Well.... I was touching her stomach one time and told her she was as big as fat Albert and then she started to cry. Mama told me, I had to be careful with what I say around her. So I learned my lesson"

I giggled a little bit, "Xavier"

"What she's huge. It's like she's growin as we speak. I went downstairs two nights ago and I seen her eating up all my nutella,"

I laughed, "really?" He nodded, "yea! Who does that, like who really does that?" I shrugged, "your neice was hungry"

"Niece?" He asked

"Yea Xavier the beybeh in Tyla's stomach will be your niece, what did you think she was gonna be ?"

"My sister... maybe cousin"

I laughed, we pulled up to the house, but I was still talking to him

"That means you gotta be the best uncle ever, even better then uncle Jesus"

"I'm gonna give her my chips, come on" he said grabbing my hand.

We walked into the house and he ran up the stairs immediately.

There was a light on in one of the guest rooms I looked and my eyes widened, "woah"

"Oh she in there" he flicked the switch on and I was looking at my sister sitting on the couch while both Jaeden and Raquel were in the room.

They seen me, and looked at Tyla, Tyla smiled.

"Hey Kim" her stomach was huge.

I looked at both of them and then Xavier ran over to Tyla with chips in his hands, "look what I got her" he said opening the chips up

He tapped Tyla's stomach, "wake up!" He held the chips out next to her stomach.

"X-xav--"

"Xavier" Tyla giggled, "I'll take them I'm hungry"

"But I got it for my niece not you"

"Xavier I told you, Tyla eats the food and sends it to your neice"

"But how come she can't eat it herself"

"She's not ready to eat it by herself so Tyla does it for her"

"If you say so" he put the chips back in the bag and walked away.

I was left in this room with them two and my sister.

"Kim you wanna help us out, we tryna put the crib together" I wanted to say something but my mouth was muted.

"I have to go to the bathroom" I said, that was only thing that came through my head. I really just wanted to cry. It's still not hitting me. I turned away seeing my mama right outside the room. I brushed passed her and went into the bathroom. I don't know how long it was for but my tears just kept falling. I wiped them away, but everytime I did they'd just come back.

"Kim" I heard my mama say

I wiped my tears away but my sniffs were uncontrollable.

"You okay?" She asked coming in the room.

I ignored her and the lights flickered on. Why? I started crying instantly and she was about to sit by me but I moved away. So she stood there looking at me.

"Why are you doing this to yourself, Kim?" She asked me

"This is hurting you inside, I know, but you can't stay mad at us, or me forever. I'm ya mama and nothin will eva change that." She said

I was sitting on the floor with my back against the tub. She sat on the toilet seat facing me.

I wiped my tears away quickly, but just as before it still slid like there was no tomorrow.

"You gotta be humble, thankful, don't be mad, being mad is only a waste of time, because you can either run with it, and be angry for no reason, or be happy" she said

"You know, when I had you, you probably remember these days clearly but you know you and I both went through our hard times. I was angry at everyone, and everything, but you would always tell me all the time, everyday. I love you mama four words that always brightened my damn mood, Kim, you were the one who helped me find happiness. I love you for that, because shit, if it wasn't for you, I have no idea where we would be."

She was quiet, "I guess what I'm tryna say is, find that happy, Kim. I don't care if that means you gotta do shit, ya people ain't finna fuck wit ight, as long as you happy and you love ya self, then I promise you shit will get betta' , shit will finally change, and blessings after blessings will come your way, ya heard me, cause this ya one life, you ain't gettin no other chance, so make tha best of it."

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"I knew one day that life would get better..."