Amaze Me (Josh Cuthbert FanFic)

Draw me...

JOSH'S P.O.V

It is now 2am and Annie and I have been talking for ages but it doesnt bother me, I love listening to her voice.

"This has really lifted my mood!" she says softly. "Natasha has been pissing me off alot lately and I really need some time out."

"Yea, I noticed that you and her dont really get on," I confess.

"That is an understatement! We hate each other." She said this as if she was sad about it.

"And that makes you sad. Why?" I want to get to know her, to understand her.

"We used to be best friends in high school. I think I just liked her cause she was crazy and unpredictable. Then one day she just turned on me." She paused. "She said that she hated me and wanted nothing to do with me," she told me quietly. "Ever since that day she has treated me like shit! Just like she has to Jade and Aoibhin."

"I'm sorry. I know how it feels to have someone change and turn on you so quickly..." I havent told anyone this before.

"What do you mean?" she asked, confused about how little information I have given her.

"My mum died when I was five. My father always told me that... that it was my fault. He changed that day and he never looked back." I cant believe I just said that. Annie makes me feel like I can tell her anything and that she wont judge me because in away she understands.

"That is alot harder to deal with than a stupid fight between two girls... I am really sorry to hear about your mum." I want to change the subject.

"Life goes on," I sighed. "How did we get to such a depressing subject?" I laugh.

"I dont no exactly!" she smiled at me. She knows that I want to change the subject so she pulls out my sketch pad from my back pack. "So you draw?" she asks in a more upbeat voice.

"Yea! I do!" I smile back at her. "I could draw you if you want?" Fuck. That is going to scare her away! I am such an idiot.

"Where do you want me," she said as she stood up from her side of the sofa. I must say I am surprised.

"Emm.." I scaned the room for an appropriate place. "How about your bed?"

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ANNIE'S P.O.V

I jump onto the bed. I am feeling abit nervous and I can feel my pams starting to sweat, but I want to do this.

"Just relax," he said softly. "I am going to positioned you now," he smiled at me and I know it was to try and make me feel comfortable.

First he took my left wrist and placed it above my head. He crossed the second one over it. Again we were touching and I never want it to stop. I am sitting up agaisnt the wall that my bed was beside with my knees up and both of my arms above my head.

"Perfect," he whispered. He made his way across the room and sat on the floor. He looked at me.

"What?" I laugh to try and cover my embarrassment.

"Nothing," he said still staring. Then he starts moving his pencil along the page in slow movements.  After 10minutes of silence between us, a piece of hair fell in my face. He laughed, "Dont move! I'll get it." He moved towards me and climbed onto my bed. Using his fingers he slowly moved the piece of hair behind my ear. He is so close to me. Jesus. We are just looking at each other and then he plants a kiss on my lips.

"Sorry," he said as he pulled away. "I couldnt resist." I smile.

"If you hadn't of, I would have." I rap my fingers in his shirt and pulled him close, moving my tongue into his mouth. I have a wierd feeling in the pit of my stomach, but I like it.

Josh holds me around my waist and his tongue moves with mine. Then he moves his mouth down my neck and suckes. Holy mother... My hands start to wonder under his shirt and I felt each of his muscles flex under my touch. His hands are moving down my legs. He pulls me even closer but it still isnt close enough. I want him all over me at once. I move my hands into his gorgeous brown hair, he moans.

Suddently I cant stop thinking about the near... rape. Josh must have noticed because he stopped running his hands over my body. "I know what you are thinking about," he said quietly. Tears fill my eyes. No, dont cry infront of him! I tell myself.

"I'm sorry..." I can hardly get the words out. I know that Josh would never do that to me and I want him more than anyone can imagine but I just.... can't.

"You don't have to say sorry! Just say the word and we can stop." He is so understanding. He hugs me and I fit my head my head into his shoulder.

"Thank you," I whisper into his ear.

He holds me tight and we feel asleep on my bed cuddled up close underneath the sheets. This is what I want. There is no point trying to hide it any longer. I want him, I need him.

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