Amaze Me (Josh Cuthbert FanFic)

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ANNIES POV

It feels so good to get it off my chest but I can't stop the tears from streaming down my face.

'Annie...' Aoibhin says in a sympathetic voice. But I don't want her sympathy, I just want to forget about it.

'Why did you not tell us!' Jade hugs me tightly. Now we are all crying.

'I, I guess I just felt embarrassed...' I wipe the tears from my cheeks.

'Why would you be emarrassed?' Aoibhin asks 'You can tell us anything!'

'Yea, I know that I can. But I just...' I pull myself together.

'You do know that what he did to you is not your fault right?' Jade asks.

'I just can't help feeling that it was...'

'No! No way! He is a scumbag and you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time! You can't blame yourself for that!'

'Look guys can we please just stop talking about this?'

'Annie you have to go to the police with this!'

'No! This is why I didn't want you guys to no! I was coping with this and now you are just going to make a big deal about it, I just want to forget ok!'

'Annie we are just trying to help you deal with this,' jade explains.

'Yea well have you ever maybe thought that I don't want your help!' I erupt like a volcano and all of the feelings that i have been hiding away for so long are all rising to the surface at once. 'Just leave it! I don't want to talk about this right now!'

'Ok, ok we will stop talking a out it...' Aoibhin says in a small voice.

'Thank you,' I sigh.

'Let's change the subject to your 21st Birthday!' Jade shrieks. She is obviously trying to make me feel better.

'Omg!! Its going to be the best party of the year!' Aoibhin sings.

'Girls I don't really want a party, I'm just not in the mood,' also I won't be able to be with Josh at it.

'What!! Your having a party! Its what you need, something to focus on.'

'I dont want one, I'd rather just go out for dinner with you guys or something!'

'Okay if thats what you want... Just think about having a party?'

'Fine...' My phone sounds and the feeling in my tummy tells me it's Josh and that he is not happy...

Josh: we need to talk...  Now. Before I do something stupid.

'I think I need some retail therapy..' Is the first lie that pops I to my head.

'Sounds great! Let's go!' Jade grabs her purse.

'Sorry but I kinda want to be alone right now...' To be honest that's not aie, I do want to be alone.

'Oh, ok, have fun.'

I grab my things and leave the room.

Me: I'll be at urs in 10...

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When I get to Joshs place its a mess... The table is on its side and the cushions are everywhere. Has someone broken in or something? 

'Josh! Are you here?' I shout. He steps out from his bedroom. 'Did you do this?' I ask in amazment.

'I had to let my anger out...' He explains in a deep voice.

'I... I don't no what to say.' I stand there and stare at him in silence. The last time I saw Josh like this was when he beat up Jaymi... I dont like this side of him. 'How do you think I feel about all of this!?' He doesn't reply.

'Why would he put that up? Huhh?!' He shouts.

'What you think this is my fault?' I shout. 'Well thanks! Its not like I already thought that myself, its not like I already feel like shit!'

'I can't deal with him talking about you in that way!' He retorts. I guess i like how he cares about me but this...?

'I hate it to ok! I hate what I went through, I hate what he did and I hate myself for it! I feel dirty every day and you cant deal with it!'

'He just makes me so angry,' his jawn tenses and his hands turn to fists. For the first time since being with Josh, I think I am afraid of him...

He walks towards me and I flinch. 'Are you afraid of me?' His eyes turn from angry to sad.

'No, I mean not completely...' I whisper. He takes my face in his hands and kisses me softly. This is the Josh that I know and love. I hold onto his arms and pull them away from my face.

'I don't no what to say, I'm sorry that I made you feel that way,' he says.

I place my hands on his chest and he looks away from me. 'Hey,' I force his face back to look at me. 'Its ok, we can get through this.'

'I can't believe that I made you flinch, I can't be like him, I won't be like him...' He mutters and I see fear in his eyes.

'Like who Josh? Who are you afraid of?' This is one of the first times he has ever taken down the wall that hides him away and I am about to find out some thing when...

'Nobody, I am not afraid of anyone!' He snaps and turns away from me.

'Josh, I,' but he cuts me off.

'Just drop it!'

I come up behind him and slip my arms around his musculer body. 'Ok we don't have to do this now,' I breath.

He turns to face me and I run my hands downs his strong arms.

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