Say You Love Me || Kaisoo

"Jealousy Is Poison"

"Just because I said that yesterday you don't have to be all up in my face!" I whisper shout at Jongin who was all up in my face. I definitely regret what I said yesterday.

"But you said I can teach you..Isn't that like a confession?"

"Yah. Don't misunderstand." I glared at me. Jongin sigh and looked away sulking. I swear he is such a kid...

The library was pact with students studying and reading, Jongin and I were at the back near the windows. I had to finish my essay but he and his annoying self wanted to tag along. And it was just a pain in the ass...

"Jongin-Ah. Pass me the book," I said as I kept typing on my laptop. But I got no respond. And no book. I looked at him, he was still friends away. Sulking.

"Wah...You..! Don't acting like a kid." He didn't even flinch or react. I felt my anger rise and my blood boil."If you want me to confess then you have to make me fall for you! You can't expect me to just confess without any feeling!!" I whisper yelled at him. He finally turned around.

His gaze was so strong that I can't look away from it."Hyung is already in love with me though. You just can't accept it, right?"

I was lost in his gaze, I didn't say anything. He came closer and smirk,"Why don't you just accept if?" He whisper. Other student started staring and whisper, I was brought back to reality. I pushed him away.

"Don't get too close..There are other people here."

"Then can I get close when other people aren't here?" He asked.

"W-What..?! No..! Why do you make things complicated..?!" I pout.

"Because I love seeing Hyung angry...He is so cute," Jongin was laughing while I was just sulking. Because of him I couldn't even focus on my work. He Took All My Focus To Himself..

He suddenly took my hand which made me jump. He brought my hand under the table and intertwine it with his. I looked at him give the: The fuck are you doing?! Look.

I tried to pull my hand away from his grip but it was no use. I looked at him, seeing his sweet smile..I gave up. I bang my head on the table in frustration. I don't really know why but I held his hand a little bit tighter. And I was sure it wasn't an accident...

"Hyung...I love you." He said out of the blue.

"I know." I reply without no hesitation."Why do you even love me so much..?"

"Because of Hyung..I feel I found someone I can really love..Again."

"You make no sense." I sigh.

"I love you."

"Shut up." I snapped but Jongin just giggled quietly.
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During Lunch break I was helping the office lady organize their work with another girl. I've never seen her before and didn't know her very well.

"Kyungsoo...Right?" She said as she staple the papers together.

"Yes...Do I know you?"

"Certainly not. I'm Haeyoon," when she introduced herself I felt the vibe...being odd. I felt like her was acting or is pretending, forcing herself to talk to me. And I get it, everyone does that.

"Nice to meet you," I lied.

"..Same. Hey, I heard you're close with Kai. Is that true?" She widen her eyes as she asked me her question.

"I'm not sure what you're talking about.."

"Don't lie. Didn't you know? Their is a rumor spreading saying you two are really close." She said emphasizing the 'really'.

"No..He is just...We are not that close."

"Really? Great! So I was wondering if you can introduce me to him! Since you're close with him and all!" She said cheerfully. But I felt my body strange. It was a strange feeling...

"Y-Yea...Sure." I said. But that wasn't what I really wanted to say. I should be happy he will have her to bother. Shouldn't I?

"I'm surprised he have only dated one girl! Such a waste of such a handsome face! She must be so special to him," Haeyoon went on.

"Eh..?"

"Didn't you know? Jongin broke up with his first girlfriend during freshmen year and have never dated anyone since then. I bet there is no one who is like her...Bet they made good memories in the past. But I'll change that." I stopped listening after that, Haeyoon went by herself.

So....That's what he meant... When Jongin said:

"Because of Hyung..I feel I found someone I can really love..Again."

He was thinking about her..He sees her in me. I felt angry, betrayed, used, thrown away...I felt horrible.

"What...What If Kai does have someone he is in love with...?" I said out loud.

"That's hard to believe..I don't think so. Even if he says he does, he is probably just playing around with her."

Arrows, bullets, bricks, bombs were thrown at me all at once. I felt a heavy weight over my body and my heart heating fast. I didn't know the reason but I took all the shot.
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"Hyung! Why are you ignoring me?" I heard Jongin yelling at me left right and center but I ignored him and kept walking. Right now, I didn't even want to look at him. I felt disgusted and angry.

"HEY!! DO KYUNGSOO-"

I punched his stomach before he could finish,"Yah...I'm older then you. Be respectful." Jongin winched in pain covering his stomach with his arm.

"W-Why are you ignoring me..?!" He said while enduring the pain. I stopped by the stop light and looked down with a 'smile'.

"I think you've done enough. You can stop acting."

"Hyung...What're you talking about?" Jongin asked, confused.

"I love you This I love you that. Bullshit. Just because I remind you of HER? You only see her in me. What reason do you have to say you love me when it's a lie."

"Hyung! What're you talking about!? I don't understand-"

"HER!! HER!! YOU KNOW WHO I AM TALKING ABOUT!! STOP PLAYING AROUND WITH ME AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!" I yelled. I heard the crowd whisper and mumble as they stared at Jongin and I.

The light turned green, and I ran home. Alone.