Lil Marais ⇒ Why Don't We

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Monday

I'm back in Los Angeles, I haven't spoken to Zach I honestly don't know what to do with him anymore, it just seems like we are never going to work, we are always going backwards instead of forwards

I leave the shoot I just finished, I get into my car as I'm about to back out and drive home the passenger door opens, Zach

I put my hand on my heart, "Dude you fucking scared me" I yell

He looks at me funny, "I'm not your dude I'm your boyfriend" He says

I laugh, "My boyfriend whose ignored me for 3 days" I mumble

I back out of the parking lot and drive. Who does he think he is? He hasn't spoken to me for 3 days and now that I'm in LA he wants to know again, haha

"Wait where we going you just passed your place?" He asked confused

Did I actually just pass my place? I got so lost in my thoughts I didn't even know. I didn't say anything I just turned around, I finally reached my apartment I parked grabbed my keys and bag I got out of the car so did Zach, I locked the car and walked into my apartment complex, I unlocked the my door and walked in

Zach touched my hand, "Sky I'm so sorry, I've been nothing but a complete asshole to you and I know I should of called or texted but I want to say sorry in person not over a text" He says

I remove my hand and look at him, "Your unbelievable" I fake laugh

"Sky I'm being serious, I really am sorry, I was a jerk to you" He says

"I don't know how much longer I can go in these circles Zach, I'm drained" I tell him

"Please don't give up on us" He mumbles

"I put my everything into the relationship but it feels like it's not good enough, it feels like I'm not good enough for you Zach and that really hurts" I say

A tear slips down my face, I look at Zach he looks taken back by what I just said

He comes closer to me, "Your perfect for me, I love you so much, never forget that" he says

He puts his arms around my neck and pulls me into a hug, I wrap my arms around his waist, "I'm sorry for always crying" I chuckle lightly

He chuckles, "Your sensitive and I'm a dick no wonder your always crying" He mumbles, he pulls away but I keep my arms around his waist he cups my cheeks, "I'm going to change, I can't loose you" He says

I really hope he does change his attitude towards our relationship because I don't know how much I can't take of this