Is this a dream?

Chapter 17

I woke up feeling shit. i looked around and i wa sin my room and Kate was reading a fashion magazine while eating crisps. "what happened?" i asked her head snapped up to me "you had a fit, seriously it was the owrst ive seen you have mum was really scared!" she said and i looked at her,

"but i felt fine that day, i didnt feel like shit!" i said and she shrugged "mum thinks it was your anger. you were out for four days, mum was about to call the hospital but dad wanted to wait until tomorrow!" she said and i nodded,

"what do you mean the worst?" i asked and she closed her magazine "well you wne tover and you done the whole jumpy thing but you were mumbleing words and when you stopped you were really cold and shit and you looked really pale we honestly thought you were dead!" she said and i nodded,

"okay!" i said and stood up "im off for a shower!" i said and left for a shower. Once i was done Kate was away and i gto changed into some black joggers and a green t shirt that stuck to me. i put on my Winne the Pooh vans, they were light blue and had Pooh bears all over them.

i grabbed my car keys and headed downstairs "where you going you need to rest!" mum said and is hook my head "im off to Tina's!" i said and got in my car. I drove staright to Tina's not really thinking clearly but doing it anyway.

I parked outside her house and she was standing at the front door talking to her sister who had Olives hand. I took a breath and stepped out of the car "Jo-Jo!" Olive said an came running upto me and i couldnt help the smile on my face,

"hey kiddo!" i saqid as she hugged me "mummy said you were ill!" she said and i smiled "all beter now!" i said and she smiled "do you have Layla?" she asked and i shook my head "sorry kiddo, she's at the vets getting a check-up!" i said and she nodded,

"okie kokie!" she said and i smiled. She ran back to Fiona who smiled at her "lets go to the park!" she said and Olive nodded "maybe i'll get some insperation for my next book, doubt it but we shall try. Bye people!" she said and left,

I looked at Tina and she was just looking at me and i did the same, just looked at her and i was taken in by her beauty it was mesmerizing! "how are you?" she asked breaking the silence "fine you?" i asked and she noddd "could be better though!" she said and i nodded,

"can we talk?" we btoh asked at the same time. I followed Tina into her house and we sat in the liing room the coffee table seperating us. I saw he rlook at my shoes and a light smile was put on her face,

"explain it all!" i said and she nodded "of course!" she said "okay firs toff im sorry and im not ashamed im far from it, Jo you make me feel things that no man has ever made me feel in a good way and i could never be ashamed of that,

What i wanted to stop was where we were going i got scared that you would continue even if i said no and i didnt know what i was saying anymore, Jo im really sorry can you forgive me?" she asked with tears lightly falling down from her eyes,

"of course i can and i would never hurt you TinTin, i love you!" i said and she smiled at me "what?" she asked and i took her hands in mine "i love you Tina and i wouldnt do that to you!" i said and she smiled,

"i love you to Jo!" she said and we kissed passionatly. She sat beside me and she sat in my arms "are you sure your okay you were fitting pretty badly?" she asked and i nodded "yeah mum thinks it was all the anger i had!" i said and she looked at me confused,

"i was pretty angry throughout the weekend, ended up being barded from the gym and completing a video game in an hour also broke my phone!" i said and she looked at me shocked "were you angry because of what happened?" she asked and i frowned,

"kind of, but bay i love you and i dont want you to worry!" i said and she nodded "okay and i love you to!" she said and i kissed her lightly she snuggled her head into the crook of my neck and i drew circles on her shoulder and i felt her relax into me,

I handt realised i had been humming until Tina mentioned it "what you humming?" she asked and i smiled "a song i wrote!" i said and she smiled "can i hear it?" she asked and i nodded,

Oh no, did I get too close?

Oh, did I almost see what's really on the inside?

All your insecurities

All the dirty laundry

Never made me blink one time

Unconditional, unconditionally

I will love you unconditionally

There is no fear now

Let go and just be free

I will love you unconditionally

Come just as you are to me

Don't need apologies

Know that you are worthy

I'll take your bad days with your good

Walk through the storm I would

I do it all because I love you, I love you

Unconditional, unconditionally

I will love you unconditionally

There is no fear now

Let go and just be free

I will love you unconditionally

So open up your heart and just let it begin

Open up your heart and just let it begin

Open up your heart and just let it begin

Open up your heart

Acceptance is the key to be

To be truly free

Will you do the same for me?

Unconditional, unconditionally

I will love you unconditionally

And there is no fear now

Let go and just be free

'Cause I will love you unconditionally (oh yeah)

I will love you (unconditionally)

I will love you

I will love you unconditionally

Tina smiled widely at me "i love it!" she said and is miled "i love you!"   "i love you to!" she said and i kissed her lightly.

I left an hour later as i had to go home for my dinner. I waved by to Tina and drove back home and i could smell my mums cooking, it smelled dilicous. I wlake din and saw ross sitting with Kate and Jake,

"hey bithc where you been?" he asked and i smiled "Tina's!" i said and he looked at me"going by the toothy smile it went okay!" he said and i nodded "more than!" i said and they looked at me,

"you fucked her!" Jake siad and i looked at him shocked "no i didnt actually, we talked nothing more but we might have said three special words so shush!" i said and we walked through to the dinnign room for dinner,

They kept teasing me about Tina and me saying we love each other but i didnt mind, i loved Tina and that was that!