supernatural imagines

Sam Winchester.

little warning this is sad.

the black parts are flashbacks.

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why didn't I got earlier we wouldn't be sitting here. Dean sat next to me blaming him self for 3 days we had been waiting for Sam to wake up but he was in a coma then it came  the thing we where hoping not to hear. the long beep his heart had stopped I jumped from my chair tears in my eyes.

'' please Sammy wake up don't die please I can't... you can't'' I said sobbing Dean pulled me off of him and nurses pushed us out of the room. I cried I Dean his arms.

'' miss and mister Winchester'' the doctor said.

''  yes is he alive'' I asked

'' i am sorry but he passed away'' the doctor said I fell to the ground sobbing. I screamed.

now two days later I was standing in front of the mirror in a black dress tears where already in my eyes. it wasn't your time Sammy you where suposed to be here and be here when our child was going to be born.

'' Sammy I got a surprise'' i said walking over to Sam who was reading we where married for a year now and we had talked about having kids before and now it was the time.

'' what is it'' Sam asked a smile on his face I gave him a small box he opened it his eyes widend a smile appeard on his face.

'' i am going to be a father'' Sam said he walked over to me hugging me

that was two weeks ago when I thought we where going to have a normal apple pie life. I should have known that it would never go that way not in this line of work.

'' y/n are you ready'' Dean asked.

''y/n are you ready'' Dean asked I opened the door and stepped out in my wedding dress Dean was going to walk me down the isle.

'' I am as ready as i'll ever be'' I said I slipped my arms through Dean's and we started walking towards where Sam stood. a smile on his face.

'' do you y/n y/l/n take Sam to be your husband'' Bobby said.

'' I do'' i said.

'' and do you Sam Winchester take y/n as your wife''  bobby said.

'' I do'' Sam said.

'' than i pronounce you husband and wife you may kiss the bride'' Bobby said. Sam dipped in and pressed a kiss against my lips.

something I never get to feel ever again.

'' y/n.. hey It's going to be okay'' Dean said pulling me in for a hug.

'' i can't do this Dean I can't'' I said.

'' yes you can sweetheart you know why cause you are strong'' Dean said. we went outside and to the graveyard where Sam was going to be burried Dean was suggesting burning his body but I didn't want that. I was the first one to give a speech it was a small gathering Dean was here, Cas, Bobby, Gabriel and some other hunters even Crowley showed up.

'' well uhm... Sam left us to soon he was supposed to be here and be here when our son was going to be born. he was everything a girl wishes in a man it is not fair that he is gone and I am still here'' I said sobs started escaping from my lips. Dean stepped forward and pulled my away from the speech stand and Bobby went up. I sobbed against Dean his shoulder.

'' it is okay to cry you know''  Sam said wrapping an arm around my shoulders it was like a trigger tears started falling down.

'' it was my task to safe the little girl and I couldn't even do that'' I said.

'' baby you know we can't Always safe everyone'' Sam said he pulled me in his chest he kissed the top of my head rubbing smoothing circels on my back.

'' it is going to be okay i promise'' Sam said into my hair.

we had gotten home I couldn't drown my sorrows cause it would be bad for the baby and I don't want to harm him.

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8 years later mine and Sam's son was almost 8 i named him Samual after Sam. Sam he had been asking about his dad so now it was time i took him to his fathers grave i thought he was old enough for it now.

'' so 8 years ago before you where born your dad passed away and this is the first time I brought you here because i thought you where to little before'' I explained.

'' how was daddy like'' Sam asked.

'' sweet, wise, strong'' I said.

'' I wish I had met him'' Sam said.

'' i think he would've wanted to meet you too dear'' I said tears in my eyes looking at my young boy. he had his eyes his same kind of hair but only my hair color.

'' mommy don't cry cause you make me cry'' Sam said wrapping his arms around my waist. I kneeled down and sat on my knees infront of the grave. next to his father's and moter's.

'' love you Sammy'' I said to the grave and to my boy.

'' I love you Daddy I miss you'' Sam said sitting next to me. i placed some white roses down on his grave.

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i cry over my own chapter is that weird.