My Messy Life

Chapter 5

 Mike and I went back to his dorm room so I could get my stuff. I was going to start spending more time at my dorm room the next few weeks, whether Brandon wanted me around or not.

Mike walked me back to my dorm and kissed me goodnight, saying he'd meet me here in the morning to walk me to class. Such a gentlemen!

As Mike and I were kissing, my door opened behind me, causing Mike and I to break apart.

"Oh, hey," Erica said in a fake tone, almost like she was mad. She looked at Mike and just rolled her eyes. "I thought you were Brandon. He's on his way over so you may want to just go back to Mike's." Erica snapped at me and closed the door.

"What the hell crawled up her ass?" Mike asked me, obviously just as shocked as I was.

"Maybe it's the baby hormones. I don't know but either way she needs a friend. I'm going to go inside but I promise I'll call you before I got to bed." I kissed Mike again before I went inside.

I opened the door slowly as I entered. I looked around to see Erica pacing around, mumbling to herself. I moved inside the door and stopped moving, listening to her freak out.

"I should just tell him. He deserves to know. Maybe he won't hate me?" My phone chirped, signaling I had a text and Erica looked at me.

"How long have you been standing there?" She rushed to my side, placing her hands on my arms.

"Uh, just a second. Are you ok? Do you want to talk?"

"No, I don't." She turned away from me but stopped just a few steps away. She slowly turned back around and I saw tears in her eyes. She looked scared and so vulnerable. I moved to her and wrapped my arms around her. She shouldn't be alone at a time like this.

"Don't push me away when you need someone. Tell me what's wrong. We're friends, right? I kept your secret before and if you need me to keep another one, I can." I moved back slightly to look her in the face and let her know I was serious about her talking to me. Tears were streaming down her face now and I moved us to the couch to sit.

"Davis, everything is so messed up. I found out a few days ago that I'm pregnant." Erica placed her hands on her face and cried more. I wrapped an arm around her and just let her cry. I have no idea how she must be feeling but if I was scared for her, I bet she was terrified.

"I told Brandon and he said he would quit school and get a job to support me and the baby. I feel so bad that he has to change his life for me but I didn't do this to myself, right?" She looked up at me for support and for me to be on her side.

"Oh yeah, of course you didn't. You're lucky that he's being a man about this. Most guys our age would just run away from that kind of responsibility."

"I know right?" Erica was slowly calming down and I was glad I gave her someone to talk to.

"I'm sorry this is happening to you. Do you want to have a baby?" I know I didn't know Erica that well but she always had options. I didn't want the baby to suffer because she wasn't ready to be a parent. She could always give it up for adoption?

"I do, but then again I don't. I had so many things I wanted to do with my life and having a baby this young wasn't part of that plan. Then there is this part of me that wants to have this baby so Brandon and I will be connected forever. I love him and I really don't deserve him but for some reason, he loved me back."

I couldn't tell if she was talking about cheating or the baby but all I knew was she'd just said she was partially having this baby to trap Brandon. I wouldn't make the same mistake twice. I was keeping my mouth shut.