The Banshee Diaries

Chapter 23

I was afraid to look throughout the crowd and see the inquisitive looks and judgmental eyes, but I have no choice so I took a deep breath in and out and looked but not at anyone of them but over their head or in between spaces "Hi, I am Foroshea and I am 16 years old" should I tell them what I am? What else about myself can I say? "I... well I don't really know what to say" and I look to the teacher who comes back up and I leave with my heart beating twice as hard as it should, my hands sweating and trembling a little while I make my way to the back and I can feel their stares which unnerve me and make me paranoid but there's nothing to be done. When I seat myself in my place, I still don't look up and my cheeks are hurting from blushing for so long "don't worry, every one will forget in about a few weeks" one of them said "Andrew!" Tanisha hissed "Foroshea, this school is for predators so you cannot be seen as prey, already as a human you automatically are but you have to change if you want to survive here" she sounded sympathetic but there was a note in her voice that didn't sit well with me, pity. I saw a shadow in the corner of my eye and I felt a pull so I looked up and looked away quickly, my heart beating again but this time lighter with so many emotions swirling around, I knew he was still there and a part of me wishes to see him again after so long but another is scared. I was pulled out of the shadow world reflection by Tanisha pulling me to my feet "come on! Stop daydreaming and move!" She seems to be angry? With me? What happened? I followed her back to the hallway and we entered the third class from outside and she pulled me to the somewhat front desks. I never got to see what things I have for school so I opened my bag and saw a pencil case full and books galore, looking at the book titles, I figured I would fail since the year has gone by and I no nothing of it and there is no way I'll be able to learn all of it in such a short time, I take out the timetable to see a lot of classes I would be taking that I knew nothing about. My heart thunders again when I felt a pull from the shadow world because I know it's him and although I don't look at him, I can see him in my mind... his brown hair with light coffee colour skin and clear sparkling blue eyes and his big honest smile that always could make me feel like I was the only one to bring it out... he never gave out a big smile like that to any of his friends. Gosh I miss him so much, why did he have to leave? There are millions of people in the world and he was the only one that was mine... so why take him away? I needed him, I still do but now I have no one.
The teacher came to class and everyone quietened down, he was tall and thin with a dreadful brown suit and black suitcase, he had an oval face with a pointed chin and short dark brown hair with black eyes covered with wire rimmed glases. "Class, I hear we have a new student, Foroshea I am Mr Stevens and I am your form teacher, class please make her feel welcome and help her if she gets stuck" he clapped his hands together in all seriousness "lets see who is serious about school to be here" he started calling out students names from the register and I waited patently for my name to be called out and was freaking out about saying 'here', I really don't get why I freak out when I need to talk or any attention is on me etc, my heart beats so fast in nervous fright all the time that you'd think I'll be used to it but I never am and it takes awhile after I answer for my heart to slow down, I actually feel my body vibrate with how fast my heart beats. My name was called out and it was made even worse because Tanisha had to snap me out of my thoughts and I heard laughter which did not help my nerves. When the bell rang I looked to Tanisha,  expecting to leave to the next class but she and everyone just relaxed while I saw the teacher leave "hey Tanisha? Do we move classes each period or stay here?" She turned around to look at me from chatting to a guy "we only leave class for physical activity classes, why?"