P.S. I Love You. [E.G.D]

Chapter 7

//Kendall//

"So, tell me about him..." I asked with a smile on my face.

"You really wanna know?" That made me nervous.

I nodded.

"Well, he's a person who really does care about you, his mind never ever ceases to have you playing the lead role in it. His world revolves around you, you light it up, he would even get told off in class because he was too distracted while staring out the window daydreaming of you and him laying on the lawn together. He would hold your hand, treat you with care and give all the cuddles a girl like you needs. He would stroke your hair while you fall asleep, he would kiss your forehead goodnight, before telling you he loves you, and even when you do find out who it is and you do get together, he will never stop giving you those letters for as long as he lives, whether you break up or not and even become husband and wife. He will look after your children and not leave you for the world under any circumstance, he will make sure the rest of your life will compose new and unforgettable memories with him and make sure you don't go and minute without a smile on your face. And you know, Kendall, he's closer than you think, much, much, closer. But that's none of my business." He said, quoting the meme and pretending to take a sip of tea.

[A/N: I JUST COULDNT HELP MYSELF IM SORRY 😂😂😂]

"You suck Ethan, why can't you tell me who it is so i can kiss him! He sounds awesome!" But then again, I'd rather kiss Ethan. Because if you think about it, he's been with me through thick and thin, knows me like the back of his hand, treats me with delicate care, knows how to make me laugh, or just happy in general, I enjoy being around him and he really is my kinda guy and I don't now why I've only realised this now. But it's never gonna work out, he will never see me more than a bestfriend...

"But Ethan, what if there's another boy I like and he is obviously not the guy behind the letter, do I ditch the letter guy for him? I'm just kinda stuck here..." I said nervously because I was scared that something would slip and he would know I was talking about him...

//Ethan//
That hurt like a kick in the balls.
She likes someone else.
Who?!
"Who is it." I said quite agitated. "I'm not telling you." She blushed, then looked down. "Why?" "Because you know him..." she said. "I don't really know anyone other than you and Grayson, wait...GRAYSON?!" Tears  were  fighting to form in my hurt eyes. I had to look away to recompose myself. Grayson?! He's been long gone to LA for over a year now...have they been talking?! My twin brother as well! So she's obviously not gonna fall for the guy who left his own twin brother just so he could stay with her, obviously not the guy who always picked her up after school, obviously not the guy she has funny sleepovers with every night, obviously not the guy who would keep her company when her parents fought, obviously not the guy who used to protect her from bullies, obviously not the guy who she is closest to. No, none of that, but she fell for the guy who ditched her and has a weird haircut and wears his grandmas earring? I guess I must be that unattractive that she chose a guy all the way in LA over me... "NO WAY, are you dumb?! GRAYSON! HELL TO THE NAH NAH NAH! I don't do long distance relationships honey.." she giggled. I looked back at her with a gleaming smile on my face... PHEW I thought my life had just ended. But although she might not have fallen for a guy that hit as close to home for me, it doesn't dodge the fact that she is falling for a guy that most likely isn't me. All these years I always liked the fact that she was my bestfriend because all the guys in school thought I was her boyfriend so they wouldn't approach her, so I kinda got into thinking she was basically reserved for me until she grew feelings for me, but I guess not...they say that everyone has and equal ration of bad luck, but I think I've had more than my share... "Well, all I can tell you is that it's not Grayson and it's someone you know very very well..." she said, looking down again, I held her chin and looked her in those big blue eyes "just know, letter guy LOVES you, and the one you like, most likely hasn't even made a move." I said. She nodded.  She kissed my cheek and we cuddled together before falling to sleep,

//Kendall//

I couldn't sleep at all that night, everything just seemed to be spinning out of proportion and my mind was a race car at full throttle with the brake pedal ripped out. Ethan was ironically right, he hasn't made a move on me, we are just best friends and that's it. And there's a guy out there who LOVES me. It takes balls and a heck load of love to be able to say I love you even when your IN a relationship with a girl, let alone to a girl not even knowing who you are and has the power to drop you at any minute. So... do I just drop the whole Ethan thing? He doesn't even like me so why should I waste my life to keep trying with no reward...I know what to do now.

And it sucks
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