P.S. I Love You. [E.G.D]

Chapter 9

//Kendall//
This dude just keeps getting better and better.

**after the forced suicide attempt, i mean, school**

I skipped my way to the bleachers on the huge pitch. I was so excited for Ethan's game tomorrow. I mean, AS QUARTER BACK, that was his life dream ever since he was capable of holding a football. And here he is. I wish my life worked like his, him being so active and going to chase his dreams until he gets it, but for me it's like CASH ME ON THE COUCH EATING HOT CHEETOS HOW BOW DAH.

I was snapped out of my thoughts when the players started running out onto the field, and I immediately spotted Ethan, 8, Quarterback, a smile instantly rose upon my face.

They began training and I didn't take my eyes off Ethan. The way he ran, how powerful his throws were, and his touchdowns were extraordinary. I know the rules of the game because Ethan would never stop nagging me about watching football with him on the TV or would drag me to matches or force me to play with him on the lawn, because he didn't have his brother by his side to do that with anymore.

I will always carry the guilt of their split. It was all my fault. Grayson is now in LA living it up with his whole YouTube fame, it blew up as soon as he stepped into LA. I'm VERY proud of him, him and Ethan were both equally my best friends and we only got closer when Grayson moved away. But when I was younger, I actually had this cute lil crush on Grayson, his smile got me there and then and when he moved away, I couldn't help but feel sad like the realisation of the feelings I hoped and dreamed Grayson had for me were actually never there had struck me.

And this was at the stage in my life where I had no one at all, my parents were both on business trips and they were fighting over the phone and they didn't want to see eachother when they came back so I guess they just stayed where they were ever since and just forgot about me. I had a year straight of zero phone calls from them like they didn't even remember they left a child at home for over a year, and three years on, still haven't come home, but I do get phone calls from them however I don't answer them, if they didn't have time for me, I didn't have time for them. Simple

And I will never ever ever have words for what Ethan did for me, he could've had it all with his brother, the money, the fame, they could date hot models and go surfing every day, but no, he ditched everything, even his twin brother, for me. For me. A basic girl with no likeable qualities at all, how did he choose me over gray? Ethan would always tell me he wanted a quiet life and not the fame, but I knew when we watched Grayson on YouTube together I could see in my eyes how much he wanted to sit beside his brother in the videos. He probably regrets it and I don't blame him, I'm just junk.

But without Ethan, I wouldn't be alive, I would be long gone, suicide or just not feeding myself, one point in my life I was so devastated at everything I love leaving my that I didn't leave the house, didn't eat, and I'd always send Ethan texts to go with his brother, to be happy to just forget all about me. And the minute I would send him those texts he would come running to the door and caring for me. He is literally my saviour and I'd definitely not be where I am today without my Ethie.

I took a deep breath and faded back to reality and saw Ethan looking up at me and smiling, I think he caught me daydreaming, he always makes fun of when I daydream and I don't even know why.

//Ethan//
I looked up to Kendall while we were on water break and she was point blank staring into space, the way she daydreams is so funny though, her eyes go wide and she is always smiling when she does it, must be daydreaming about Zac Efron, probably anything but me.
"Looks like Ethan's lovestruck by his little lady..." Jae said. "What?! No, she is just my bestfriend, that's it." I said blushing, thank god my helmet was on. "So you won't mind if did this?" He smirked. "Hey cutie! Why don't you come down here!" He yelled. "No thanks, I'll stick where I'm at." She replied. I couldn't help but smirk and hold in a giggle. "Well if your not coming down then I'm coming up hottie." The words cutie and hottie infuriated me. How long I've spent trying to get her and this random jerk thinks he can do it with the click of his fingers. I think the fuck not. My ears were burning up with anger. But I stayed still as I watched him sit next to her, I noticed how uncomfortable she was as he dragged her onto his lap. "YO STOP!" I yelled, watching her trying to escape. "WHY, ARE YOU IN LOVEEEE WITH HER?!" " DUDE SHES MY BEST FRIEND STOPPPPP" I leaped up the bleachers and grabbed Kendall in my arms. "One more thing" Jae said as he got up, he got Kendall's face and kissed it hard. "YOU DID NOT JUST FUCKING DO THAT YOU TWAT!!!" I said, grabbing his collar and throwing him down the bleachers.

KENDALL

I immediately turned to her tear stained face. "I'm going, we only had 10 left anyway!" I yelled over to the team and I carried Kendall away. I walked all the way to her house in my full football gear with her on me like a koala. I looked into her eyes as I set her on her bed.

Oh Kendall.