Fifty Shades Ever After?

Chapter 8

Christian POV

"How can you say that? A person leaving is their fault, not yours. You can't own what a person does". She sighs "In this I can no matter what Elliot says. After mom and dad claimed those 2 bodies as you and Parker, I had to plan a funeral that I knew we shouldn't be having. I did it and was a good girl about it. But Elliot felt the same as me that you weren't gone. We searched everywhere, the dark web talking to junkies near the area you were taken. I even went to a few of those BDSM clubs with Taylor in tow to see if any of your subs was bragging about finally nabbing you. Nothing then Elliot was over helping to fill that void the kids had, especially Teddy since you had raised him alone for the first 5 months alone. Kate was pissed that he was over so much and helping me, not spending time with her. See Ava came whenever he did, so she couldn't say he was neglecting his daughter, just her. Also during this time, and I am not proud of it, I was drinking a lot. So he was trying to convince me to dry up. I was reluctant because I was numb with it. Kate thought I was trying to take Elliot from her and said as much to me. Accused me of making life too dramatic and I just needed to realize you were dead my child was dead and move on let it go. So I got more depressed and Elliot went off on her and she broke off their engagement. She gave him custody and left to be a field journalist, he gave her the house since she sold hers to live with him. Since he was over so often I offered them to move in with us, since it was my fault anyways". I shake my head "Nothing you explained caused her to leave because of you. I always said she was selfish and a bitch but held back because of you and Elliot. To leave her kid because my brother was searching for me, helping his sister in law with her kids? It was an excuse and this just proves after that bullshit with Jose you never should have given her another chance". 

Ana looks at me with shock and horror "Do you realize any of what you just said? Your brain is working fine and those 'lost memories' are closer to the surface than you think". I think back on what I said and am shocked. "What the hell did that mean? I have just touches of stuff and all that just came out. I remember Kate was part of a reason I didn't have you with me for a while. A long while....a year or something". She whispers "Or something". "You were hurt and I cared for Ted, Theodore Raymond Trevelyan-Grey....you named him after my grandfather and your father". She is crying "Yes I did....are you remembering this"? I whisper "yes I am. I can't believe touching your hand has brought so much of this to the surface. You are like my miracle". She chuckles ruefully "I'm sure....I've got to get the kids home, Gail must have dinner ready by now". She gets up to leave "Please Ana don't leave me...I don't know if I could handle that. Too much has come up, I don't want to lose any of it". She bends down and kisses my cheek. "You won't lose it because if I know you Christian Grey  you'll fight like hell to make sure it stays....that's just who you are. But the kids need to sleep....if you'd like I can have Elliot stay the night with you". I snort "My wife is leaving me in the capable hands of my brother? Something must be wrong with that". She looks at me "Wife? Are you saying Mr Grey I am your wife"? "That I am Mrs Grey....that I am. Even when you told me before I did feel something, even if I didn't understand what it was. Seeing Derrick? is that his name...was a flash of me as a child. He looks so much like I did". "Yes his name is Derrick Christian Trevelyan-Grey...he is very proud of his middle name. I am glad you felt something good, because it gives me hope that you are in there somewhere".  She starts to limp to try door I call out "When are you fixing that limp there"? "When I can Christian when I can, things are just too hectic and I can't be selfish when it comes to the kids....they always come first". I shake my head  "Your being stubborn Anastasia Rose". She turns to me and rolls her eyes at me, I continue "Spanking occurs in vanilla relationships also Mrs Grey". She continues walking out the door she states "So you've said before Mr Grey".

Just after Ana walked out, John came back in looking at me like he doesn't recognize me "Was it a productive conversation Christian"? I smirk "You could say that John. I had an amazing conversation with Mrs Grey". He smirks at me "So did some sort of memory occur while talking to her"? "Hmm I remember the first time I met her...I grabbed her hand and just felt this jolt of electricity. I realized that she is under my skin and I didn't realize it until I touched her. Then just different emotions were shooting in me. Then she was telling me about how Kate left Elliot being her fault and things came out of my mouth that I don't even understand". "Like what Christian"?  "How Kate is spoiled and selfish and how I had always thought she was but never said anything because of Elliot and Ana. That Kate should be lucky that Ana even wanted to remain friends after the Jose incident". He tutted "Now the question is...do you remember the incident with Jose"? "Not really just that Kate was part of the reason Ana wasn't around for a year or so. When I mentioned this to her she got a strange look in her eyes. I know there is something more there but she didn't elaborate". John sighs "Christian she won't elaborate on that, it was hard enough to begin with. Don't expect it.... it'll just get her a set back or back slide and I don't need that neither does she". "Was it really that bad"? "It was worse Christian, it was worse than your imagining and as her doctor I can't tell you anyway". "John eventually I will remember what happened. You know this". "Then we can discuss it when you remember. Until then I am a closed book. I feel a lot of optimism coming from you and that is unusual for you". "John you should remember that when I want something I get it, and for some reason I want to reclaim the heart of Anastasia Rose Grey". He chuckles "Your on the road to recovery already.  Your being back to your cock sure self egotistical and possessive. Just curious though....did the she tell you her middle name or did you remember it? Think on that".  John leaves the room and has me lost in my thoughts.