suicide || h.s ✔

twenty seven - present

{Edited- I wrote this in school so it's sort of short and the present chapters are always going to be on the short side.}

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 "Wait, hold up! Dad! What the hell is wrong with you? And Uncle Ni, you have some serious problems to you know. You guys were so selfish back then, that all you really cared about was mum or yourselves. You guys were going to stop being best mates because of some girl? You're crazy and stupid. I can't believe you guys."

I was kind of shocked by Darcy's outburst. I hadn't expected her to be so upset over the fight the lads and I had so many, many years ago. It feels like forever ago. Just thinking about it gives me butterflies in my stomach because of the horrible things we did to each other. But Darcy was kind of right, though Kaylee was not just 'some girl', we still shouldn't have let her get in the way of our friendship.

"Didn't you guys ever hear of the phrase 'Bros before Hoes'? I thought that is like the number one bro code for boys."

The lads and I chuckled a bit. I didn't expect her to say something like that but once again she was right, like always. "Well, yeah but your mum wasn't just 'some girl', Darcy. She was someone beyond that yet she didn't know that. You have to understand how complicated her life is. Niall was her best mate and all he ever wanted to do was protect her. I came into the equation and brought her world down even more. I let her fall harder and harder each day. It was hard for me to try and adapt to her life. I thought that I would be able to do it but I was young and stupid and only thought about myself. I didn't really think how your mum was feeling half the time and when I did try to help her, she didn't want it. It was like she was playing hot and cold and it was so hard to try and keep up."

Darcy looked over at each and every one of us. "Okay."

"Okay?"

"Yeah, I mean I get what you're saying and where you guys are coming from."

Agreeing with Darcy, Perrie spoke up, "I wasn't able to always be there for your mum because my band was just getting started. I was always at small meet and greets and small concerts until my band really picked up with a fanbase. If I could, I would have been there for her more." Perrie stopped talking, a distant look in her eyes.

"So what happened next?" Darcy asked. She bounced in her seat once, overly excited to learn more about her mum.

"Well, like Zayn was saying, our Where We Are tour was starting to begin."

Zayn smiled, "It was one of our best tours, I think. I had the most fun on that tour. We were trying out new things and our music was slightly different. We were starting to mature and I think our music was maturing with us."

Darcy snorted, "You guys? Mature? That's funny because with Uncle Lou in the band, nothing will ever be mature."

The whole gang bursted out into laughter. Louis just smiled sheepishly, a faint blush appearing on his cheeks. Darcy laughed along with us. "Sorry, anyway, please continue."

Instead of Zayn picking up from where he left off, Louis took the reigns, "Like Zayn was saying, we were starting off our tour. Originally, we were going to start in South America like your father had originally thought. But instead we were starting in Ireland, specifically Niall's hometown, and Kaylee was going to be there. We were all nervous for Harry because she was about eighty percent better and he was slowly getting better. And that's when Harry realized how mu-"

I cut Louis off, finishing his sentence, "How much I am still in love with your mother."

Darcy clapped her hands, letting out a girlish squeal, "Oh my gosh! This is so adorable. Please continue."

"Right. So we get to Ireland....."

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