CHAPTER 12: AGAIN?
What the hell just happened? My heart was racing. I actually just made out with my teacher…and plan to do it again after school. Was I trying to replace Abe with Blane and when that didn’t work out I tried to use Mr. Smith? Stop, Carter.
You need to talk to Katie. She’ll know what to do.
Ring, ring.
“Katie?”
“Carter! What’s up?”
“I need to talk to you ASAP.” I said with urgency in my voice.
“What’s wrong?”
I explained the whole situation.
“Oh my god Carter.”
“Yeah. What do I do?”
“Well, obviously that wasn’t rape. Do you want to do it again?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, we definitely are sisters. No blood test needed. Carter, I thought you were the smart one out of us both! Ugh, I mean if he makes you happy, have at it, but make sure that this isn’t some strange attempt at getting back at Abe or Blane.”
“It’s not. I actually really like him. We connect… on an intellectual and physical level.”
“TMI! TMI!”
“Hey, you asked.”
After we hung up, I knew what I had to do. I had to have sex with Mr. Smith. Truth was, it totally had to do with Abe and Blane. I didn’t want Abe to be the last one I did IT with. I didn’t want Blane to be the last boy I liked. I had to change it up. I had to fix my mistakes… by making a new one. Sure, I was using Mr. Smith, but he was just collateral damage. Nothing personal.
After school, I walked into Mr. Smith’s classroom to find Blane sitting casually on one of the desks.
“Mr. Smith had an emergency call. He told me to tell you that he couldn’t make your… uh… sex assignment.”
“Excuse me?”
“I saw what happened earlier. To be honest, I didn’t like it one bit.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about, Blane.”
I tried to spin around to leave the classroom, but Blane blocked my exit.
“Oh we are so not done here. Sit down. We have to talk.”
“Chris and I are none of your concern, Blane.”
“Chris? Your on a first name basis now? God, Carter. What the hell is wrong with you? He’s your TEACHER.”
“Relax, Blane. It’s not that big of a deal.”
“Not a big deal! Are you crazy? He could get in serious trouble for getting involved with a minor, Carter. Plus, if anyone else found out, your entire reputation could be in shambles.”
“I don’t care, Blane. I’m leaving here in a month anyways.”
“What?”
“The only reason I’m here is because my grandfather is dying. My dad’s trying to save him. Judging by the way things are going, he’s gonna die… probably soon. So sorry I’m not trying to build a huge friend base and boyfriend status.”
“So you just want casual sex with your teacher whose married so things don’t get complicated.”
“See! Now you get it.”
“Carter, that’s insane.”
“No, whatever is going on between us is insane.” I retorted.
“Carter, all I want is to be with you. That’s it. I can be your casual sex or your one true love. I can be whichever one you want. I can be a dick or a womanizer or a AV Club nerd or a jock or a musician. Whatever you want, Carter, because in return, I’ll have you. You’re all that matters to me.”
We were so close that I heard his breathing. I could practically hear his heart beat. It pounded my eardrums. He placed his hand on my face and traced my jawline with his thumb. I was so enrapt in the moment I didn’t see Mr. Smith come in.
“Blane?”
“Mr. Smith? I thought you had an emergency.”
“I did. That was an hour ago. Thank you for keeping my student company, Mr. McDonagh, but I think its time for you to leave.”
“Mr. Smith, I know about you and Carter. It needs to stop.”
“Carter told you about our history debates? They’re quite… enlightening. She’s got quite the brain, that girl.”
“Yeah I’m sure it’s enlightening to feel your students up and down. I saw the entire thing. Carter didn’t say anything. She actually defended you. She actually believes that there is something between you two.”
“Blane, I trust you won’t be rash and say anything stupid.” Chris warned.
“I won’t unless you leave Carter alone.”
“Is that a threat, punk?”
“I’m just saying the authorities would have a field day with this. I think you should leave town, sir.”
He looked around the room and stared at me. My head was in my hands. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted Blane so badly… but I wanted to not want him. Ergo, I wanted Mr. Smith.
“Carter who do you choose?” Mr. Smith suddenly said.
“What?”
“You heard me. Choose.”
“Choose what? You going to jail or not? Not. There, I chose.”
Suddenly, a big smile stretched across Mr. Smith’s face.
“You know that’s not what I meant, sweetie. Blane, here, is in love with you. It’s quite apparent.”
I looked at Blane, who was silent for the first time in his life. He just stared down at his blue Sperry’s.
“Choose, Carter. Blane or me?”
After seconds of hesitation, I said, “Mr. Smith I think it best if I switched out of your class.”
His face dropped and Blane’s lit up. He raced across the room to where I was standing and kissed me. It was… magical. His hands rested on my hips and mine moved through his hair.
Mr. Smith stormed out of the classroom, but I didn’t even care. All I wanted was to be with Blane.
