Dawn

Chapter 2

Beep beep beep.....

My alarm went off but i was already awake. Something told me that today was going to be a good day, maybe it was the sun shining through my blue curtains or it could be the peace that the morning brought. Whatever it was, i am loving it.

I smiled, still wrapped up in my sheets, i stretched my hands as far up as it could go from my body, yawning as as wide as possible and it didn't matter because today is Monday.

 "yes" i smiled victoriously. The house was quiet which meant that i am the first one up. i jumped from my bed in a mad rush to get to the bathroom but the universe had other plans for me.

" ahhhh!!!!" i screamed falling over a box that was in the way, my hand reached out for air as i fell. I quickly used my hand to block my face from the impact while hardening my other muscles for the fall. i didn't hurry to move, i stayed there, lying in between boxes. Maybe i shouldn't be this happy. even a smile was too much for me. This might be a new start but  my demons always know where to find me when i'm happy. I can't do this, shaking my as if to agree with my thoughts. I can't hurt anybody else. I don't deserve them

I got up from the floor and made my way to the bathroom, making sure to avoid the boxes that were in the way. Life just knows how to kick a  wounded man. My eyes were full of tears but it knew better than to fall when i am outside of the showers so by the time i got there i could hardly see anything. 

I just stood there, back against the no longer cold wall, with the shower running. I wasn't numb, i could feel everything. She died because of me, i don't deserve another chance, new beginnings aren't meant for me.

"Alex you need to get out of the bathroom, i have school too" i closed my eyes and took a deep breath. whether i  deserved it or not i had to take it because she would want me to.

 "if you're going to yell from the door how am i going to concentrate on what i am doing in here" a half smile played on my lips knowing that he probably rolled his eyes.

"so you no longer know where you body parts are?" he asked sarcastically 

i rolled my eyes this time. when did he get so sarcastic? " just shut up"

Wrapping my towel around my body and opening the door to for him to enter.

"you see? when you're not talking thing happen" he just ignored me and closed the door.

I walk quickly back to my room, hating that i was only in my towel. Its not my style, usually i would have just got ready in the bathroom but i left my clothes and Corey wanted to use the bathroom so now i am in this situation. i heard one of the doors open and my heart beat multiplied a thousand times, i didn't wait to see who it was i just ran straight down the hall to my room. I closed the door and leaned my back against it trying to catch my breath. maybe i was over reacting, nobody is going to hurt me.

 Not anymore.

 i didn't take long to get dress because all of my clothes were now on the ground and it was now very easy to just take up a shirt and a jeans to go. I ran down the stairs, through the house and to my car. i did stop for breakfast because i hardly eat food and my morning was going way too well to stop for a conversation so i just drove to the Midwood High school. It was grand, i knew it would be big from my research but seeing it in person made everything real. my mother chose well.

This was definitely a place where i could be lost. I'd be just another face,no one will notice me and i won't even exist in there world.

i smiled. i'll be a nobody, Just. Another. Face