The Dead Killer

Chapter Twelve

I'm not going to go back. I can't. I'll die if I go back. I'm sorry, Barry. Maybe we'll meet again someday.
Instead I stay in my apartment. I am entirely isolated from the world. I like it. It brings a kind of tranquility that I have never known. But it also brings a new level of loneliness that I have never been familiar with. I'm alone now. Barry is probably dead. That leaves me with nobody. I don't and never have had any pets. I had nothing until I met Barry. But then when I met Barry, I suddenly had everything I could possibly want. But now he's gone and I am forced to return to having nothing again. This is the type of thing that I have always been afraid of. But now my fears are becoming reality, and I have nowhere to hide.
I have no shelter or protection from this cruel world anymore. My protection was killed. Maybe I should join him. That way we could be together again. Something I know we both want; to be together again.
At the same time I feel like he would be disappointed in me. He probably wants me to live my life for as long as I can, and to be happy. But he should also know that without him, I can't be happy. Without him; I am nothing but depressed, and sad, and lonely.
Would he want me to live like this?

A/N: So Sophia's feeling very conflicted... And also a little suicidal. No idea what to do at all. ALSO: I AM NOT MAKING FUN OF SUICIDAL PEOPLE OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. THIS IS JUST A PART FOR THE STORY.. But, if you are reading this and you are suicidal, please stop reading this and get help. And another note:  Also,  I'm trying to make this story less depressing, but it's actually kind of hard. I mean this story is about killing. So.... Yeah. But I'm going to get away from the suicidal stuff soon.. Also, if you are reading this and you think that I am suicidal, I am NOT. This is just the story, and I am just being a good writer. So please, no hate for this part of the story. It's just the story. But anyway... Barry and Sophia are definitely a OTP. Also, tomorrow is Christmas Eve so I just wanted to say Happy Holidays!! Also: I won't be updating for a little while due to Christmas being here soon, celebrating with family, etc. So this is just a heads up.

Another note: sorry this chapter is so short. I'm trying not to write long depressing chapters. Anyway, like I said: HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! Stay safe if you travel and.....yeah! P.s. vote please.😊