Head over Heels 1| j.b

Sweet Caroline.

It seemed like everything was going downhill for Adrian and I. It wasn't how it used to be...laughing and having lots of sex just like in high school. Now that she's finished with college and I'm done with touring I don't know what else to do. I'm marrying the girl of my dreams, but that doesn't seem much. When I left, I grabbed some breakfast for Adrian and I and took it back to the house.

"Hey," I said, sitting beside her on the couch.

"Hi," She says, then being quiet.

"I got breakfast for us. Sorry, I didn't cook or anything I just-- I went to talk to someone this morning. I decided to see a shrink. I did it for you."

"I want you to do it for you not me Justin. I'm scared for you..seeing your mom lying on the floor like that; I knew you should've went to talk to someone months ago. I helped you with a crime."

"I know. I shouldn't have put you in that situation. I'm sorry, and I know a sorry isn't going to bring her back. She just drove me insane. I didn't want anything happening to you or Adriana. I loved her to death Adrian; I fucking loved her. I was so ready to bring her into this world and call her my daughter, but someone had to fuck that up for us, and it gets me even more upset just thinking about it."

"Then don't think about it. She's gone."

"I know. It just hurts..a lot. I put your life at risk dating Tori and having a horrible mother come into your life like that. I can't rewind everything, but I wish I could. I wish I could wake up from this nightmare I'm living in and start over but I can't. I killed my mom. I didn't mean for it to end like that she was just- she brought the memories back, and I hate that she showed up at the hospital. I wish she never met you and never came near me. I love you, Adrian; I will do just about anything to keep you safe. Please talk to me." I said scooting closer to her. She takes a deep breath moving her eyes on me.

"Justin I think the only person you should protect me from is yourself. It's not about me and you or anyone else..it's about you. Only you Justin. I can't stop thinking about last night, I want to forget it all but I can't. Yes, your mother was a cruel bitch that never listens, but you didn't have to do that. It's all because of this anger you're putting on yourself that drives you to be angry."

"I don't want to lose you again," I said.

"I don't either. Everything was fine."

"It still can be that way. If I come clean, I'm going to prison. I don't know what to do Adrian."

"I helped you last night. I would be going to prison too."

"I'm sorry I put you in this situation. I can't sleep, can't eat. Every time I close my eyes I can see her. I'm so tired."

"Yeah, you look tired. Be right back." She says getting up going into the kitchen. She came back giving me a glass of water sitting back beside me eating breakfast. I took a sip of water, after a few minutes I started to get sleepy dozing off on the couch.
I quickly woke up. My body was utterly sweaty, and my heart was racing. I threw the blanket off of me walking downstairs. I checked my phone searching for the time, 6 in the afternoon. I heard a commotion coming from the backyard; I saw Adrian, Ryan, and Christian talking cooking BBQ. Her eyes laid on mines, she smiled telling me to come outside. I slid the door open walking out towards them. "Hey. How are you feeling?" She asks hugging me.