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Promise.

I could tell he was furious at me. I could just read it upon his face. He walks out of the room slamming the door behind him. I wanted to go after him and explain everything, but I didn't want to, the doctor came back in sitting at her desk going through some papers. I felt terrible about lying so I had to come clean.

"About the abortion..I-I lied. I did have an abortion. My ex-boyfriend raped me, I was in an abusive relationship, I didn't want it. My boyfriend doesn't know anything about it, it happened four years ago, and I'm really feeling bad about it."

"Oh, Adrian I'm sorry to hear about that it's good you're telling the truth so I can know what's really going on. Um..abortions doesn't interfere with the fertility unless if you've had repeated abortions then yes it would make a huge impact on why you can't get pregnant. If this was recent, then having a baby can be very dangerous. I want to help you, Adrian, I do, and since it was your first abortion and it happened a long time ago you have nothing to worry about. You'll be fine, are you sure you're ready for this? This isn't just for him right?"

"No, this is for the both of us. We've been trying for three weeks now. You think I shouldn't get pregnant?" I asked.

"I think you should take some time and think about if you're actually ready to be a mom. Its normal to think about a baby and want one after an abortion. I support your decision and the reason why you did it but um...there's different emotions to feel after having an abortion. Did you feel any different."

"No..I mean I was crying a lot during and after it happened. I just didn't want anyone judging me; you know how society is these days wanting to make decisions for you. I think abortion is something you're not supposed to talk about to anyone that's against it. I think it should be kept between yourself and your doctor, I think it's no one's business, and people have a right to do whatever they want with their body. We're not put on this miserable planet to live someone else's life. That's why I kept quiet about it for so long; it's so freeing not to have everyone down your throat making you the bad guy. I felt good keeping it a secret. No one should feel like they're stuck with something because of someone so cruel did something to them." I said with a sarcastic chuckle.

"You're right. I agree with you, if you felt like you did the right thing, then I can't do anything but agree with you. Now if you're considering a baby think about it and come talk to me. Here's my card..please don't hesitate to call me Adrian and I suggest not telling Justin about the abortion it could hurt him." She says handing me her business card. I put a forceful smile on my face knowing he already knew about it. I left the room seeing Justin walking out of the clinic. I quickly went after him grabbing him by his arm.

"Justin. Let me explain." I said.

"Don't fucking touch me?" He says yanking his arm from my grip walking towards the car. "Unlock the door," He says.

"Not until you talk to me."

"Talk about what? That you got a fucking abortion and didn't even fucking tell me. How could you do this to me, Adrian? How could you do this to us?"

"We were not together at the time!" I yelled back.

"Who's was it, you better not lie to me I swear to god--"

"It was Jason's. God, I was hoping you wouldn't figure it out. I didn't want you judging me."

"Well it's too late for that isn't it, you killed a human being while I'm here working my ass off trying to get you pregnant and the problem was you having an abortion that may cost us not to have a family at all Adrian! Did you think any of this through!?"