mistake at 11:11 、 bts

nineteen - jhs

-nineteen; sick since 1998

^the picture above killed me btw

still the same day–
11:12 am-

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the next morning i woke up on my bed with saehyun next to me, she looked so worried and there were tears in her eyes, "oh my fucking god you're okay" she cries in relief and hugs me tightly "w-what happened?" i ask, "you fainted- please don't tell me you've been overly stressed again?" she asks me and i kept silent, "you didn't call my parents right?" i ask, she looked down, "i'm so sorry" she apologizes and i looked away from her,

"i also contacted your doctor but turns out he doesn't work there anymore so they recommended another doctor" she explained, "you're parents are meeting him now and they said they'll call me if they trust the doctor" she continues,

'even if that doctor is a fucking raper they wouldn't fucking mind' i thought to myself as i bit my lip,

"wait so does that mean i'm not going to meet them?" i ask and she nods, "thank god" i say in relief, "i'm so sorry" she apologizes, "its fine" i smiled at her, "well you should rest i'll wake you up when we're going" she says, "a-okay!" i smile and lay on my bed, she walked out and i tried to sleep, but suddenly my head went to taehyung,

wasn't he here?

"haera you're parents just called me" saehyun said while opening the door, looking at me, "lets go" she smiles, i gulped as i open my mouth to ask, "what happened to the boy that slept here?" i ask her, "oh your boyfriend? yeah he left a few hours ago because of something i don't really know, he was so worried its so cute~" she teases and i glare at her, "hes not my boyfriend"

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if you guys are wondering why i fainted and stuff,

i have this sickness

it still doesn't have a name but basically  its sort of a mental disorder,

it triggers when you're stressed out, you'll get nausea, headaches, nose bleeds, anxiety and many more,

this started when i was 5 years old, that was when my grandfather passed away,

ever since then it happens everytime i think about something to hard, or get stressed over it too much,

"we're here" saehyun says and i got out of the car,

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"ms. kwon?" the nurse called me, i walked inside the doctors office, i read the sign on the floor and it wrote

'mr. jung' 
doctor

i walked in and sat on the chair, waiting for the doctor to show up, he was still on his computer and it seems like i'm his first patient for today, "doctor jung, the patient is here" the nurse called out and mr. jung turned around, my eyes widen in pure shock,

"hello, my name is jung hoseok and starting from today i'll be your doctor" he smiled widely, a smile i couldn't return cause i couldn't even believe my eyes right now

"j-jung hoseok?" i stutter and he looks at me weirdly, "yeah jung hoseok" he laughs, "just call me hoseok if you want" he smiles again, this time i actually force myself to smile, nodding at him

"well lets check you up" he says and i stood up, walking to the examination table, or should i say nervously walk there.

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"as you can see- it was a light seizure, it seems like it started when she got overly stressed on something, it triggers the side effects to happen and as we all know one of the side affects was getting nose bleeds which resulted her to start nose bleeding and lets just make a conclusion that her brain forced her rest" hoseok explained to saehyun, he handed us a bottle of the pills i grown used to and opened his mouth to speak, "i'm sure you both know what this is, for now you should start to check up regularly again and have these meds in an easy place so when you get any seizures you can quickly drink it before it gets worst, you should place them in your bag too " he continues to explain,

i don't know when it happened but suddenly my ears didn't process what he says anymore and instead i started staring at him,

he's so ethereal.

i can't believe jung hoseok the sunshie is actually my doctor

i shouldn't tell him yet, it isn't the right time,

'when is even the right time?'

"thank you, doctor" i heard saehyun say and that snapped me out of my train of thoughts,

i suddenly got a call from tae and i answered it, "taehyung?" i answer

i saw hoseok snap his head at me and i panicked "yeah can you call me later i'm a bit busy.."

"doing? i'm not doing anyhing"

"wHAT THE FUCK IM NOT DOING ANYONE"

"nO IM NOT WITH JIMIN"

"YAH JUNGKOOK STFU IM
NOT WITH JIMIN"

"I SWEAR TAE JDJSN ASK NAMJOON"

"SEOKJIN HELP ME PLEASE"

"NO IM NOT WITH HIM"

"IM IN MY ROOM OKAY IM TRYING TO REST"

"YES IM FINE NOW"

"ILL TELL YOU GUYS LATER"

i closed the phone quickly and shoved them in my bag, they kept calling but i ignored them, saehyun sighs and fake smiles at hoseok, his eyes were on me for awhile and he opens his mouth to speak, "well thats all, i hope to see you soon" he smiles and i wave before leaving the room.

"this is crazy" saehyun sighs, she then realizes that i was zooming out so she quickly changes the subject, "by the way where did you meet the boys that you were talking to? why have i never heard of them before?" she smirks and i roll my eyes.

- part nineteen end -

DOCTOR JUNG HOSEOK CAN FUCKING CHOKE ME AND I WOULD THANK HIM OH SHIETTT-