"It helps."
"That's your fucking reason?!" [N] was petrified, he had never heard Jungkook get so angry. "You're killing yourself and you give me two words to explain?!"
[N] stares wide-eyed at him as Jungkook grows angrier. Jungkook waited for an explanation but never received one. He laughed bitterly and grabbed his hair.
"Well?" He shouted, approaching [N].
Spluttering, [N] tried to answer, but he couldn't find one to say. He had thought of many, but could never tell innocent Kookie them.
I don't want to live anymore.
The burning of my lungs takes away from the burning in my head.
It's what the fans want.
I need to. I can't stop anymore.
"I-I don't know," [N] answers. Jungkook moves closer to him, his hot breath fanning centimeters from his face.
"You do, you just can't say your reason because you don't believe it," Jungkook spits glaring at [N]. Suddenly, [N]'s eyes begin to water, a mix of the anger and the sadness.
"It hurts, okay?! I don't know why I thought I was over it, but every time I see a scar it comes to mind. Every time I go online, people mention it.
I can't even walk down the halls to the dorm without you guys looking at me differently!" [N] screams, his eyes watering. Jungkook's eyes droop as he begins to pity him.
[N] grows angrier as he looks at Jungkook, "That's what I mean. I'm so sick of people pitying me. If you want to show you're there for me, talk to me."
"You don't ever talk about it!" Jungkook replies angrily. [N] halts and simply stares at Jungkook. Jungkook stares back with the same amount of force.
"Name one person who has tried to talk to me about it," [N] finally speaks.
"What about the day in the hospital?" Jungkook smirks, knowing that he bested [N].
"Some things can't be fixed with laughter," [N] answers before walking away. Jungkook's face softens and he goes after [N]. Grabbing his wrist he pulls the now crying boy into his embrace.
"I'm sorry. Why didn't you come to someone to talk?" Jungkook asks.
"Everyone's already overwhelmed. You guys have everything in America going on and everyone in Light is just trying to be like you guys.
They put so much pressure on us already... I don't want to add any more to everyone's plate," [N] pauses before finishing. He sniffles and Jungkook turns him around to face him.
"[N], it doesn't matter how much we already have on our plates, we always put each other first. You can always come to me," Jungkook's words slow as he looks into [N]'s eyes. Jungkook wipes [N]'s tears before grabbing his arm.
"Let's get back to the others, okay?"
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Hey, so if you're seeing this new update, I decided that this is the last chapter.
I'm going to have an epilogue, I'm needing to end it here since I have a crazy busy schedule and I need to focus on musical, school, dance and my life in general.
I feel like things are getting better for me again and I've been happier without the stress of having to update.
I'm sorry, but it's what's best at the moment.
I want to thank you all so much for supporting this book, it makes me happy.
Remember, no matter how amazing they are, which they are, don't put BTS before your health and grades.
LISTEN TO PIED PIPER. Seriously, these boys want the best for you so put down your phone and do something with people.
Wow, I sound like a mother. Welp, imma get going 👋🏻✌🏻
I love you all❤️❤️
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Longing // Taehyung x Idol Male Reader
Fanfiction[N], at age 18, was the maknae of a successful boy group, Light under Big Hit Entertainment. He was very lucky because almost no one had found out that he was gay yet. It wasn't exactly accepted in Korea you could say. Light lived in a separate dor...
