Every Rose Needs The Rain Sometime

Vogue

Ever since I revealed my pregnancy that's been the talk everywhereeeee . I realized I was only getting bigger and I couldn't hide it forever so what was a more perfect time then revealing it to the world after an amazing come back performance and now people see why I have been staying on the low. I had read all my congratulation emails, messages, and comments but you still had your nosy people here and there asking who the father was but I just blocked them. I had a photo shoot today for the cover of vogue they wanted to do a maternity shoot with me for the cover of their next magazine how exciting was that. I had all my bags packed to fly over to L.A. and everything I needed. "Rose lets go slow poke your gonna miss your flight." "hush! im coming!" I walked down the steps step by step. "a little help" I said hinting at my bag "oh right" Brandon said taking my bag and going to the car "you have a nice photo shoot and call when you land please be careful with my little munchkin" my grandma said rubbing my belly "yesss grandma I know".

I hired security to bring with me through the airport so I could get through easier with no interruptions and just because anything can happen in L.A. I sat on the plane reading a bunch of articles about home births. I was getting closer to my due date which was May 26th and I wanted to have a home birth. I wanted everything to be done naturally with my baby want to keep him or her as healthy and cleansed as possible plus I can take a little pain.

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I had finally reached set and was sitting in the seat as they played in my hair and started make up somebody came over with water and a pen and paper. "Hello Rose welcome to the set I got you some water because I know your probably tired" "hi thank you so much for having me" "So before we start the shoot we have to ask a few questions like a little interview for the magazine you know how it goes is that ok?" I nodded my head "Ok vogue wants to congratulate you on your pregnancy you are just really killing the maternal look how do you keep yourself up while being so busy?" "honestlyy I haven't worked out until recently but I've been eating healthy, taking walks, meditating, keeping in touch with my spirituality." "yes we know your very big on that how has being the spirtual person you are affected your pregnancy" "for starters it helps to keep my mind clear which keeps me relaxed and not stressed out" " have you decided on any names yet?" "No sadly *laughs* but I have a list but I haven't narrowed it down just yet as you see im ready to pop any day so I need to." "what does the term supermom mean to you.." I thought deeply as people like my mother and grandma popped into my head..how strong they are and what great mothers they are and all the risks they take "to me I think it means knowing your not perfect and you are gonna mess up but doing everything in your power that you can also for someone like me balancing a full time career and taking care of mommy duties..I can't say I know what i'm doing or act like i'm not nervous because I am but I do know I will love this child with everything I have and that will never change" "wow amazing your gonna do great see you out in front of the camera soon darling" they got up and the make up artist came back finishing.

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"yesss georgeous! now just tilt your head  a little bit like this and place your hands here" the photographer directed me through the shoot and it felt good this shoot made me feel like a powerful goddess with nothing but positive energy surrounding. I laughed, smiled, danced and played around a bit. I even hit a ballet pose as the fan blew through my curly fro "yup still got it!"  I let my leg down hitting a spin smiling I was really full of life and energy and happy.