the cracks that appear

Can I trust you

Mistakes we make always have a way of coming back to us, man I wish mine wasn't based on desire and mentality, a lot of you who know me personally may be confused about who up the mystery guy in this book is, some things he left me have left their mark, desire still peaks but trust is being tested.

Abby was talking to her best friend and they were talking about Ronan , Abby's best friend had mentioned Ronan said he was trying to play with Abby's emotions, Abby had felt a surge of anger rise but it soon turned to tears as she wanted him so much that she couldn't bear it if he fucked with her head after he told her that he was glad she was getting better. Abby is slowly moving on from he ex if she could even call him that. For Abby the guy in question is caring but there is a tiny bit of uncertainty because of where he lives.

There is one positive thing that has come from the friendship, Abby hasn't felt the need to cut or self harm in ages which is a big step as before she might cut once or twice a week because she felt shackled to her past and couldn't find a way out. Ronan has a bit of leverage over Abby because he knows what she thinks of his body as they were going to "play" with each other. This drove Abby crazy like she couldn't think of anything but his body, his jet black hair and his light beard which she wanted to run her fingers over, gorgeous long legs but what got her was his perfectly sculpted abs. Abby couldn't stay still, a deep desire was awakened within her and she became more playful. Abby had tweaked her walk but more importantly wore heels that she knew he loved. The second she caught him looking she smiled and bit her lip, Ronan started talking to her best friend about improving gag reflexes, Abby suddenly looked at him and swallowed as quietly as she could, her thoughts were going crazy, but somehow the conversation had turned to "serviving" him, so Abby took the opportunity to tease him and she looked him straight in the eye and said 'you'd love if both of us "served" you' indicating to her and her best friend. His reply was 'wouldn't be objected to it' he smiled while he said it, deep down Abby could feel desire be reignited within her. Abby's friend who was with them was horrified with what both her friends had said. Abby turned back around and made her way to class while also hoping he'd get off on the fact she wore his favourite heels.

Abby knew everything about this situation was wrong but she couldn't stop feeling the way she felt. Ronan didn't help much because she couldn't think clearly around him and she nearly always teased him sexually because that's just how she was.

I didn't think I'd get this done, want to thank everyone for the support. Enjoy xx will be back as soon as I can.