You Are The Heart

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by Mari_Von_Monroe

by Mari_Von_Monroe

A/N So this is kinda a sad chapter but I'm sorry, kinda having a depression attack but I needed to write something, it helps me not feel numb...please don't worry about me.. I love you all no matter what and if you guys need to you can talk to me no matter what okay? This chapt has lyrics from 'you are the heart' and 'incomplete and all alone' ~Mari_Von_Monroe

Jayy's POV:

I was sitting in my room, alone, sad, lost. I wanted to cry my eyes out because of..him. I lost the one I love today, when he came home from work....

FlashBack

I was waiting for Daniel to come inside, I really like Daniel he knows it too and today I was gonna ask him out, I heard his car doors close and I walk towards the door to see him walk in with some guy "Oh hey Jayy this is my new boyfriend Garrett" he introduced and I just waved and made up an excuse "Um, Dahvie needs me gotta go"....

And here I am sitting in my room while Dahvie was hanging with James working on bitchcraft... I let tears fall down my face and I hear the door close downstairs...I guess Dahvie's home...

"Jayy I'm home!" He yelled and I didn't respond "Jayy?!" He yelled again and I just stared blankly at my wall, I've never felt so alone, why doesn't anyone get me? Would they care if I was gone? I'm spinning around in my head tonight, would it all be so easy? Would they ever miss me?

I looked at a piece of paper and wrote all the ways I could describe myself right now down, when Dahvie walked in my room after knocking. "Jayy? Are you okay?" He asked worried and I didn't say anything, I just shrugged.

"What happened?" He asked as he sat next to me and I just had more tears fall from my face when he grabbed the paper from my hands that said..

Faggot, stupid, worthless, alone, slut, fuck up, damaged, idiotic, ugly, fat, gross, annoying, whore, retard, failed abortion, fake, screw up, dickhead, cunt, douche, fucker, gay, not enough, irritating, revolting...ect

Dahvie's face cringed as he read every last word I wrote, "Jayy these are lies other than you're gay but who cares? It's your life?" He cooed and I just stared at the wall without moving

"Jayy Von Monroe remember you're the heart that beats inside of me, if you give up tonight, you give up on me" He sang and I turned to him and gave him a sad smile and he hugged me close

"Don't give up on me baby" He said...baby? where did that come from? "Dahvie, I destroy everything I touch...even things I love to much" I whispered the last part and he just held me humming "I was cursed with these hands, they'll never understand" I say and he kisses my temple

"Jayy, I don't want to let you go, while you're incomplete and all alone" He declared and I smiled a bit knowing he cared enough to stay with me...wait I wonder... "Dahvie, I'm tired" I announce and he laid me on my bed "Can you stay" I added and he smiled "I wasn't planning on leaving you" He stated and I smiled a bit

"Goodnight Jayybear" He murmured as he lay behind me holding me close "Night Dahviekins" I finished and we drifted off to sleep..

****MORNING****

I woke up still in Dahvie's strong arms and sat up, I saw him squirm a bit before opening his eyes and yawning. "Hi" He giggled and I smiled "Morning" I say and he sat up and hugged me "Jayy.." He started "Ya?" I questioned....please don't hate me, please don't hate me....

"Can I tell you something?" He asked and I pulled away from his embrace and looked at him

"Yeah?" I was really nervous

"Will you be my boyfriend?" He asked and my jaw felt like it broke and dropped, I was NOT expecting that. All my happiness regrew and I smiled from ear to ear "YES!" I say and he smiled before softly kissing me....He is my heart....

A/N I was super sad then writing and Dahvie on younow cheered me up so happy ending :3 and I have Dahvie's snapchat name!!! @LordDVanity :D I love you all!! ~Mari_Von_Monroe