She's A Monster (Jimina Fanfic) [COMPLETED]

Chapter X

JIMIN'S POV

"Seul," I tried holding her hand as soon as I reached her, but she shrugged it off real fast and faced me with an angry expression. "I am sorry about--"

"You're always sorry, Chim." She cut me off and wiped those angry tears on her eyes quickly using the sleeves of her sweater. "I ask you for a date, you say sorry. I ask you for lunch out, you say sorry. I ask you for time, you say sorry. Is that everything that you can say, Chim?" I can see that pain in her eyes. I can tell that I damaged her heart big time. "I can't even tell if you're sincere with that sorry or not because you tell me the same thing every now and then." Her voice fainted as she keeps on saying what she wants to say. I remained silent and held my head low. I don't know what to say except for being sorry because I know that I have done a lot of unfair things to her. "You didn't understand me even for a single time, Chim. I've always been by your side for 2 years already. I've supported you with your studies as well, but why do I feel like I don't feel any support from you? Am I the only one who cares right now--"

"No--"

"Then why do you keep on ignoring me?" She asked. I was about to hold both of her hands but she stepped back and sobbed. "Those apologies are making a deep cut in here, Chim." She pointed her left chest using her forefinger, probably pertaining to her heart. To where I hurted her. "You've told me a thousand sorries already and I have a thousand cuts in my heart, too." I want to say sorry, but that would just add another cut inside her heart and I can't bare to see her again in pain. I saw that harlot pass by us quickly and never turned her head back. I want to run to her and hit her, but I don't hit women. I want to argue with her and tell her that she's the reason why there's a commotion earlier. "You ignored my requests, rejected my texts and now you argue with some random girl that you don't even know. It feels like you've changed, Chim. It feels like you're not the guy that I met two years ago." She then stopped from crying and sniffed. I pity her for how she looks right now. Her pretty monolid eyes are now flooded with tears and her pointed nose is red. Her sweet and cherry lips are now spitting out the words that I don't want to hear especially if it's from her. "Is this my fault?"

"No, Seul." I sighed and held her arms. This time, she didn't step back and just looked at me. "You made zero faults."

"I tried reaching out to you, but you keep on shutting me out. I don't know if I still know you." I wanted to tell her that I'm still the same. The same guy that she fell in love with two years ago in that beach.

I cupped her cheeks and looked at her eyes sincerely, "I am still the guy you loved two years ago. I didn't change--"

"Then why did you have to argue like that with a woman, Chim?" I have never fought with a someone verbally before especially if it's a woman and I guess it surprises Seulgi. Maybe I've really changed just like what she mentioned earlier. "Do you know her? Did she hurt you? Did she do something bad to you to cause you to shout at her like that? You're not telling me things."

"I met her when we broke up." I said truthfully.

"S-So suddenly?" I know that she's very shocked of what she heard from me. Who would find a girl just as soon their girlfriends broke up with him? That's just a stupid move to move on. Then maybe, I guess, I'm just as stupid at those guys. "Y-You've r-replaced me with a random lady after I sent that text message to you?" Her voice almost cracked and I hated hearing it like that. It makes my heart crack, too.

"No--"

"Then who is she? Is she that important to you that you had to argue with her like that? Can't you just ignore her?" Her voice seems pleading. I can't tell her the complete story because she'll think less of me. For sure, it'll just be one of the reasons why would she want a break up with me.

I wanted to assure her that she's not someone important. That she's just someone I fucked for a night because of that alcohol. "Look, she's just nobody." Yes, right, Jimin. A nobody. "She's not important."

"Why do you have to keep on arguing with her then?"

"We just fought last night and things are still bad between us. Don't think about it." She sighed and shook her head sideways.

"I don't know, Chim. I really don't." She covered her face with her pale palms, so I stepped forward and gave her a warm hug. I want her to feel that through this simple gesture, I still love her and care for her. She just concluded things way too easily. "I don't even know if I would still want myself to be with you anymore." It pierced my heart right through in the middle. "That future that we once talked about...it's all blurry now." She held both of my hands that are resting on her waist and took it off from her. She then looked at me and made a half-smile. "See you around." She just nodded slightly and walked away from me. With that "see you around", I know that she wants to break up with me. It's the end of our relationship.

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"Aren't you going to answer that?" Taemin hyung asked me and even pointed my phone. I shook my head sideways and grunted. Everything had gone wrong since that terrible break up. I didn't have the will to study anymore.

"Let's go to a bar and drink." I told him lazily.

"I'm on duty for tonight, Jim, so I can't." He said and started taking his books from his backpack. "Ask Yonghwa instead." He smirked a little. That phone ring stopped instantly and it rang again, so I answered it frustratingly.

"What?" I asked whoever in the phone is. I noticed that it's already 2 PM already and my class is probably starting, but I won't go. I don't have a reason to study anyway. I don't have a clear future anymore.

"Jimin!"

"Who's this?" I asked when he said my name.

"Jooyoung hyung."

Oh, it's Jooyoung hyung. He's the guy that I went with in our dance class. We met several years ago and we barely had time to hang out with each other because we got busier. "What is it?" I asked him.

"Seems like you're laying in bed." I hummed a yes. "Hang out?"

"Where?"

"Drinking."

"Sure."

"You have to come with a partner." I groaned. Why the fuck do I need a partner if I would just want to have a fucking drink? "Don't worry, we already got you one."

"I'm not into blind dates." I told him seriously.

"You'll like her for sure. She's a real catch."

"I just went through a break up. I'm not in the mood for blind dates."

"That's a good way to move on. C'mon, Jimin." He really forced me into going to that drinking party. He told me that it's not just the three of us because he'll bring a partner and other people will go, too.

"Okay, fine." I told him and sighed deeply.

"Wear a tuxedo. Bye!"

"Hyung--!" He suddenly hung up. Why the heck should I need to wear a tuxedo? After a little while, I received a text message with him with the context where that bar is. Looking at the bar's name, it seems familiar. It's the bar where rich people go there all the time to go and have some drink. I don't have to wear a tuxedo in such bars like these, but he told me that it's a welcoming party.

Grunting, I stood up and took my jacket, so I can but some cheap tuxedos.

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