Meredith's Thoughts

I Do Bad Things.

We all do bad things. We all do good things. Nice things, mean things, selfish things, and selfless things. You can't just say someone is just bad or just good or just whatever. There's a reason for everything, good or bad. Was it the way they grew up? Is it what they're going through? Is it mental scars? Physical scars? How they were treated? How they weren't treated? People are always gonna make assumptions about you matter what. And you're going to also. When you pass by someone who seems stereotypical or basic you're gonna think that they're stereotypical and basic. You can't help what you think. But you can sure as hell help what you say. It's the idea of thinking before you speak, because some things just aren't meant to be said out loud. It's the idea of just having a basic respect for everyone when you know nothing about them yet, and the understanding that you know nothing about a stranger. Yeah it's fine to not want to be around someone or to not like someone as much as others or whatever, but don't just say that based upon a first impression. If you don't know enough then don't create a public opinion. I do bad things too. We all do. And if someone hasn't then their moment is right around the corner. But in all honesty, what is bad? If it's harming and/or offending someone or something that isn't hurting/offending someone or something else, then, well, our society is broken. But it's not shattered, it can still be fixed. It'll never be perfect, it's impossible. There will be those times when someone will crack and do something 'bad', but that's only because something bad happened/is happening to them. It's an endless chain of events. So when I do something bad don't judge me based off of just that. I might scream at you, but I'm sure as hell gonna cry about it later.
In other words,
What I say and do to Travis is not what I'm gonna say and do to Aidan.
What I [said] and [did] to Carson is not what I [said] and [did] to Gabe.
What I [said] and [did] to Kelvin is not what I'm gonna say and do to Travis.
What I say and do to Isabelle is not what I'm gonna say and do to Erika.
What I say and do to Sofie is not what I'm gonna say and do to Isabelle.
What I say and do to Erika is not what I'm gonna say and do to Sofie.
What I say and do at home is not what I'm gonna say and do at school.
Like Taylor Swift said, we think we know someone but we really only know the side of them they choose to show us.
Some see more of me than others.
And nobody will know all parts of ourselves except ourselves.
And who I am? That's a whole other story.
So in simplest terms,
People are confusing as fuck.
But that's okay.
The world is confusing as fuck.
But that's uncontrollable.
There is no perfect solution to fix the world.
And there never will be.
Peace out.