perfection; pyrocynical (niall comas)

chapter four

"you so like him, june, don't bullshit me." alex chased after his sister, who was walking quickly through the house as an attempt to make him fuck off. he was a stubborn sibling, and continued to chase her.

june stopped, and turned around to face him directly, catching him off guard.

"i do not like niall, alex." she growled. he'd been pestering her all day about it, and she was thoroughly pissed off.

his next words just completely set her off. she just snapped.

"you're a liar."

"i do /not/ like niall, alex! he's... he's immature, and annoying, and he's nothing like me! i will never like niall." she growled, and then she turned again, away from her brother, to be greeted by niall. she stopped in her tracks.

he looked like he didn't know what to say. alex fell silent, which was rare, and niall just stood there, trying to muster up words to say to this girl.

neither one of them knew what to say, as niall walked by her, going to his room. he didn't slam the door, didn't stomp. he was calm, and looked sad.

"fuck." june breathed. she shook her head as she tangled her fingers into her hair. she gave a small glare at alex, before going to niall's door, knocking lightly. no answer. she tried again. no answer. she figured he didn't want to talk to her, which she didn't blame him for. the brunette sat on the couch, worrying for niall, who still wasn't answering, by the way.

"this is all your fucking fault!" june yelled at her brother, who was standing in the living room awkwardly. he jumped at her yelling. "you did this! everything--" she punched his chest. she didn't really have the strength to hurt him, just enough to get her point across."is your fault!" she felt a sob rip through her as she lost the strength and motivation to even fight him anymore. he wrapped his arms around her, and she fell into his chest, tears spilling from her eyes as she did so.

she was shaking like a leaf, feeling like she lost someone that she really liked, which just tore her apart.

alex held her as she calmed herself down. she hiccuped, trying to pull herself together. she stood after awhile, wiping her face. "i'm sorry." they both said at the same time, and then they both laughed breathily.

"i love you, fuckface." june looked to him, and alex just shook his head, with a small smile.

"so, i'm guessing you didn't mean what you said about niall?" he said next.

june shook her head. "i don't know. my mind is jumbled, with, some emotion i can't describe. he makes my head feel fuzzy, and makes me feel all... fluttery and squishy and--" she began to rant, pacing back and forth while making drastic hand motions.

"aww, junie's gotta crush!" alex said, and she shot him a glare.

"don't call me junie." june shot back. she sighed, running her fingers through her hair.

"okay, maybe you're right. maybe i do have a small crush on niall." she admitted, and alex laughed, clapping.

"i called it!" he yelled, his voice booming across the entire place. june rolled her eyes.

apparently his booming voice summoned jake, who lazily came out of his room, blinking to seemingly get used to the light.

"she likes him?" jake asked, disappointment in his voice. at first, she thought it was because jake actually fancied her, but her thoughts were shut down when jake passed alex about twenty pounds. alex pumped his fist.

"you guys were betting?" june asked, raising an eyebrow. alex nodded, and jake shrugged. june laughed, before she remembered the situation in hand. she looked to niall's door, which jake noticed.

"i mean, he has to come out eventually. he'll like... die if he doesn't." jake shrugged. "he'll get over it."

that made june even more distraught. she hurt his feelings. she hurt niall. it was ironic, as he got tons and tons of hate comments everyday from strangers telling him to kill himself, that there's so many things wrong with him. he didn't care in that situation, but when she did it, right to his face, it hurt him.

the thought broke her heart, as she walked up to the door.

"n-niall? can i come in?" she asked, her voice soft. she heard a small sigh, and a door unlock. her hand gripped the cold door knob, and she opened it, stepping forward.

the room was dark, the only thing lit up was a screen of what seemed to be an editing software.

"you know--" she began, to be cut off by niall.

"you don't have to say anything. i was waiting for you to say something like that. people get sick of me eventually. it just... happens." niall turned around in his desk chair so he was facing her. his face was solemn, showing no emotion once or ever.

"niall, i didn't mean it--" she was cut off again. normally she'd be agitated, but she oddly didn't.

"if you didn't mean it, then why did you say it?" niall asked, a bit of anger in his tone. june, being a bit aggressive herself, replied quickly.

"sorry my brother had been pestering me all day, niall. i just said that so he'd fuck off!" she raised her voice a bit. the solemn face niall held before broke a bit as he furrowed his eyebrows.

"that's a great excuse. that bullshit isn't going to work for me, though. you said it, it came out of your mouth. you could've just settled it a different way, but you didn't." niall stood, and so did june. though she was shorter, her gaze was still sort of intimidating even to niall.

"i didn't know what else to do, niall! if i meant it, i wouldn't fucking be here. arguing with you, to try and make things okay! if i meant it i'd be out there, pretending like nothing happened. because while i may be a sort of... soft and polite person sometimes, i have a bitchy side too, believe it or not. and i'm not afraid of it, nor am i afraid to use it." june seethed, poking his chest to push him back down in the seat so she was standing over him. niall looked shocked.

she cracked her fingers, though they weren't even popping anymore, as she stood over him, not knowing quite what to do.

so, she walked out of his room, and out of that door.

she no longer fancied england.

it could burn to the fucking ground.

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hiya everyone ! happy new years ! i hope you enjoy this chapter.

~lexi