Sweet creature

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Sweet Creature | How I found you

I meant it when I said I didn't believe in love at first sight. It takes time to truly fall in love with someone yet I do believe in a moment.

A moment in time when you glimpse the truth within someone, and they glimpse the truth within you. In that moment you don't belong to yourself any longer, not completely at least.

A part of you now belongs to him; part of him belongs to you. After that, you can't take it back no matter how much you want to, no matter how hard you try.

Claudia Gray

Serenity.

Today will be different. Today I will smile and say that I'm fine with just enough persuasion that no one will dare to think otherwise. Today I will lie though my teeth with an overjoyed smile on my face just to save my self the million questions I know everyone is dying to ask me. 

After the accident I moved away. My mother thought it would be a good idea to leave, and have a "fresh start" to be a normal teenager, but lords know that we can only run away from our problems for so long. It's only just a matter of time, before we'll have to face reality - and for me, today was that day. After three years of running from my past, I am now forced to face it all again. 

I sigh relentlessly at the thought of it all, as I stare blankly at my bare reflection in the mirror. Cinnamon brown eyes, 2c curl pattern hair, freckles on the bridge of my nose and cheeks, warm Olive skin, rose pink full lips. At least these things hadn't changed about me. I still look exactly as I did the day of the accident,  Only my eyes aren't as lively as they once were. Instead they're slightly lifeless, and a bit unrecognizable. 

I carry trauma in my eyes. I carry losses, and most importantly I carry regret. 

"How are you feeling?" The voice was so close that it startled me half to death. I hadn't notice that my mom was directly behind me, admiring my beauty through my mirror. I was so lost in my own thoughts, that I didn't even hear her come in.

"I'm fine" I lie. My smile still upbeat and my voice filled with convincing joy. The smile on my mothers face gives me enough hope that maybe she bought it - but I've never been much of a good liar. She places a kiss on my cheek and doesn't bother to press me more about my emotional state. 

"So I have a surprise for you" My mother says happily. I force a smile, but my facial expression gives it away - I was nervous. I've never cared much about surprises, in fact I hated them. I always wanted to control the things around me, and surprises are something I cannot control. They were unpredictable, and that scared me. The unknown scared me.

"Mom..." I trail off, clearly anxious. 

"Before you worry, it's nothing major. Since you're a senior now I thought you'd appreciate your own car" 

I look into her beautiful sea blue eyes to check for any signs that this may be some sort of a joke, but the seriousness her face held convinced me of otherwise. My family wasn't poor, but I also didn't come from the most wealthy family. My dad died before I was born, so I never got the chance to know him, but my fathers passing allowed my mother to inherit his money but inheritance only goes so far when you have to take care of two kids all on your own. The money slowly started to go, but my mother made due with what she had. A bachelors degree in law, that granted her some mediocre job working for the state that's kept us afloat. She was hard working, but money has always been tight for as long as I could remember. I'm sure any other teenager would be elated to get a new car, but I was the complete opposite. With all the medical bills, and regular bills my mother was faced with, I know this costed her a lot of money she really can't afford to lose.