Sweet creature

S I X T E E N

Sweet Creature | Sweet paramour

She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice;

it was supposed to make you feel something.

John Green 

Kai

I was losing my mind. Going insane. How could she want him? Him! Not that I was much better option, but I was still the best option for her, but she wanted him. No. I thought. I couldn't just let her fall in his arms, I wasn't going to just give up by default, and watch Noah get to have everything that I dreamed about. Everything I fantasized about, everything that I wanted. Serenity was like a air in the atmosphere. Fresh, and lively. She existed with purpose, and that purpose was me. Us. No boxing match, or punching bag would allow me to express myself the way I wanted to, I needed to see her, be with her. I needed to fight for her, to fight for us - even if there wasn't an us. She deserved to be in my arms, and nobody else. Noah was never even able to beat me when we were kid, I allowed him to win. I gave him everything, just so he wouldn't lose his own confidence, and when the time came, he didn't reciprocate. He never did, but now - all of that was going to change. I was done forfeiting, over letting him win. I've done it enough.

I wasn't going to let him have her. Not without a fight. So, I found myself zooming down the unfamiliar streets to her house. Noah would be there to pick her up for the party soon, but not if I had anything to do with it. I needed to get to her first. I pressed my hand on the clutch flying through the dark and deserted streets. I had a good memory, I only dropped Serenity off once at her house, but my memory depended on this moment. To my luck I made it to the right street that she lived on. I smiled at myself in accomplishment, but wasted no time. I parked my bike on the street, throwing it in park before rushing to her front door. I hope I wasn't late, I hoped Noah didn't beat me here, and that she was already gone, because I needed to see her tonight. I didn't even know what I was going to say, it didn't matter. As long as she was with me, that's all that mattered. Without another hesitation I rung the doorbell.

The air outside was a bit chilly tonight, the stars filled the night sky, scattering all around the full moon, that sat in the middle of the sky beautifully.  I was going over in my head what I was going to say to her. Would she be happy to see me? or would she ask me to go? I was nervous. Way more nervous than I've ever been in my entire life. Maybe because I was finally throwing out my lifeline, I was finally bringing everything to the alter, including my burning feelings for her. There was no turning back - this moment was happening. This moment would leave a significance forever-

"Kai" The sweet soft sound of her angelic voice ringed thought my ears. Her alluring brown eyes locked with mine as the door flew open, revealing her. She was beautiful, dressed in her usual normal clothing, nothing different for the party. She was always so authentically her. Never changing for anyone, or anything. Something I adored most about her.

"Can we talk, please?" I ask. Nerves taking over me completely in this moment

"Of course" She whispers, stepping out and closing the door behind her.

We were alone. Silence filled the air, but not for long.

"Look, Serenity" I began, but pausing before I could even start.

I step closer to her, leaving only an inch apart. I pull my arms up to her face, and rest my hands on her soft, smooth cheeks gently. Our eyes never break from where they are. Mine on hers, hers on mine. She looks up at me, her attention undivided. I tried to come up with the right words to form, the right words that would sooth her over, and win her heart. The right words that would express the way I felt about, but nothing came to mind in this moment. All I could do was stare into her deep brown eyes, and savior this moment with her. Savior the feeling of my palm against her skin, savior the spark that danced in her eyes when she looked at me, savior the faint sound of our heartbeats intertwining, savior her. I didn't want this moment to end. With a lost of words I decided to do something more passionate than speak. I declared that words simply weren't good enough for me so, without a second thought I lean down, putting my words on auto-pilot and letting my lips do the talking. My lips slowly find their way to hers, I press them softly against hers and apply light pressure.

I wasn't expecting to feel this feeling. The feeling of electricity as our lips locked with each other. I kissed her passionately, letting all my worries go, and letting love guide me. To my surprise she kissed me back with the same amount of passion, her passion was different from mine. Her passion felt gentle, cozy, and patient. A certain kind of bliss - mine on the other hand felt like burning, like a fire being set to a forest. I felt bounded to her, like she belonged to me. Like we were made for each other.

I pulled back. Letting my lips slip from hers. She gasped for air, and I did the same. I didn't want our kiss to end, but I feared that if I didn't pull back soon I would have consumed her. I would have taken her whole, and she was too pure for that. Too good. Still, that kiss was the best kiss I've ever felt in my life. It was more than just good, it was breathtaking - she was breathtaking.

"I love you Serenity, the way you make me feel - nobody in this world has managed to make me feel the way that you do. You are all that I think about, all of my thoughts, and all that I am. You make up me, and without you" I pause. I press my forehead against hers, letting my head drop to her level "Without you, I may as well be dead -  because you, Serenity Hale are my life"

I close my eyes, letting the words settle into the air. There - I did it. I thought. I finally put everything on the line, and now she knew how I truly feel about her. Now she knew that she wasn't  just some girl that I enjoyed being around, but that she was much more than that. She was my heart, my air in the earth, my water for survival, my all. And nothing - nothing in this world could taint the way I felt about her, or compare to her. She was it. Her. I wasn't expecting the words to fall out of her mouth when she said.

"I love you too Kai Carson, I love you too"

And the words, were like poetry to my unheard ears, and my shattered dark soul finally had a reason to exist. And that reason was you.