Sweet creature

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Sweet creature | HighSchool

An optimist understands that life can be a bumpy road,

but at least it is leading somewhere.

They learn from mistakes and failures,

and are not afraid to fail again.

Harvey Mackay

Serenity

The next morning the first thing on my mind was Kai. It was automatic how my my thoughts instantly fixated on him. And his perfectly structured boyish face, with his perfect pink lips that were the right size. The thought alone painted a smile on my face. The smile manage to stay the entire time I got ready for school.
I wore my favorite V-neck baige sweater with lace around the V neck part, throwing on a pair of faded pink cargo pants, and topping it all off with some white sneakers. I decided to leave my hair be, I was thankful my curls were having a good day- so I wouldn't have to touch them this morning. I never even bothered with makeup as I cut the lights off in my bathroom, then grabbing my book bag before I head downstairs. 
I was still smiling as I entered the kitchen where my mother was sitting at her usual spot at the table, watching the news on Tv as she sipped on her coffee. She didn't say much to me yesterday after finding out I cut class to leave with a boy- I mean even the principle did more than my mom, I had detention for a week, and I wasn't skipping it. I just couldn't believe my school punished me before my own mother. Even still - She continues to say nothing - her eyes staying glued to the news station. I decided to join her , I mean if she was going to big deal out of it she would have done it by now.
After 5 minutes of eating and sitting coffee in silence , with only the news playing between us my mother gets up, heading to the sink. I didn't expect for her to say anything until she did.

"So, do you like him? " the sound of her voice threw me off. Now her eyes were on me, she didn't look mad or anything, in fact she looked invested.

It was odd, I've never had a crush even after going through puberty- so luckily the boy conversation never had to get had with me. She had it with my older sister because she was much older, but anytime when they did talk about it, I've alway made it my mission to avoid it. Because at that time boys to me were uninterested, now that's changed . I mean, sure I liked him, but I fear it was more than just a like. I thought about him - dreamed about him. I got butterflies when he spoke, and my eyes were captivated by his. Everything about him made me want more, so "like"was an understatement.

"Yes" I admit, honestly.

"Well, he sure is different- and, if I'm being completely honest with you seeing him drop you off on the back of a motorcycle freaked me out yesterday serenity," my mom says, I could tell she wanted to say more
"It's no you. I trust you," she starts "but boys like that - boys like him, their bad news serenity , and you've been though so much with you're dad, and you're sister and I just don't want this to be some phase." She finally breaths. Her rant over, but; now I was confused. I thought she wanted me to make friends, and wanted me to talk to boys. Or was it just boys like Noah that she wanted me to do all those things with? I couldn't decide rather to be angry or not. It made me feel better that this attack my mother was having wasn't so much about me, but more so about Kai. She was judging him, just like everyone else had. But how can a boy that grew up in church be bad? How can someone that hides their feelings to avoid disappointment be bad for me? How can someone who bleeds too be bad? I mean sure his reputation was bad, but reputations and the truth were two different things. Kai Carson's reputation was bad- but him, himself was not bad - in fact he was an angel. An angel to me, with just a little bit of darkness on the outside.
His light didn't shine any less to me, no matter how much his darkness tries to taint him. But- my mother didn't know that about him, I mean how could she ? So I just smile in response.