Sweet creature

S E V E N T E E N

Sweet Creature | I keep falling

I fell in love the way you fall asleep;

                        slowly, and then all at    

once.

John Green

Kai

I wasn't suppose to fall; in love, with her.

I wasn't suppose to feel this god damn happy about anything in my life- yet I did without even trying. I never wanted to love her glorious brown eyes, or her beautiful pure smile, or even her do-gooder personality that was very opposite from mine.

Yet I did.

Love always seemed so ridiculous to me, I wasn't a believer, until this very moment. Serenity is the best parts of me, the parts that smile, and gets excited over little things.  The parts that surrenders who I've been all my life for just one single dose of her. I'm not sure if this is love, but it sure did feel like it: and if I were being honest with myself, I didn't want this feeling to end.

"So, about that party" I say, tilting my head up towards the open dark road.

I was riding in Serenity's car, that smelt like her. Strawberries and sunshine. After our moment on her front porch she quickly canceled her plans with Noah, she did it so effortlessly, without a care. I smirked at the memory. I was rubbing off on her. She was so....free. Less guarded now, and more lively. Even when she commanded me to get into her car, and started driving towards an unknown destination to me, she still seemed so sure. Yet, I couldn't point out what held in her eyes. She was conflicted in this moment, both happy and tortured.

The car comes to a sudden stop at once. With a deep sigh Serenity throws the gear in park before exiting the vehicle without uttering so much as a word. She was silent as she climbed out, and walked to the open road that was deserted at this time of night. I followed her quickly, curious now. My eyes watch as she crosses the street to the side of the road where a bridge was. The night was silent, the most silent I've ever heard this town. Nobody was around, not a single car in sight.

I walked towards her, her small frame leaning over the bridge that overlooked a small body of water, her syrup brown eyes pearling far out in the distance, not looking at me, but staring at the water. Maybe even staring past the water.

"Did I ever tell you I had a sister?" Her voice was so soft, so light that I could barely even hear it. It sounded more like a faint whisper to me.

I shake my head.

No, I didn't know that.

"Her name was Sarida. She was older than me, but she was my best friend, and we did everything together." Serenity says, her angelic voice trembling as the words escape her.

"It was May, she was a senior, ready to go off to college in just a few short months, her entire life ahead of her.........I was at a party. A stupid, dumb High School party when I got drunk. It was so irresponsible of me, but I was young and impressionable. I didn't want to call my mom to come get me, because she would have killed me for drinking, so I called Sarida. Being the amazing big sister she was, she came to get me, knowing my state she came to rescue me....." The silent filled the void.

I didn't speak, too scared to ruin this moment, instead I wrapped my arms around her, pulling her close to me. I didn't realize she was pouring her eyes out until the tears fell down onto my arms.

"I didn't see the truck, all I remember was hearing the tires stretching, the sound of the impact, and then the results of it. I saw her body, lying there in the middle of the road, this road - dead. I saw the glass that surrounded her lifeless body, I saw the fire of the truck burning in the distance and then I saw nothing. I woke up in a hospital, it was a miracle I survived the crash but," She shakes her head, sobbing into my chest as she gasped for the words. " I killed her Kai. I killed my sister"

"Hey, Hey it's okay," I whisper into her ear, holding onto her as if her life belonged to me.

"It wasn't you're fault, okay?"

"NO IT WAS, had I not gone to that party, and got drunk and been so stupid then she would have still been here, I-"

"You listen to me Serenity Hale," I interrupt her quickly, lifting her head up to meet my eyes. I felt her pain, I hurt too. She isn't the only one that's experienced a great loss before. I lost the person I loved most in this world too. She wasn't alone, not when I was here with her. She would never be alone again. Never.

"There's nothing, nothing. That you could have done to prevent that, just like there was nothing I could have done to prevent my mothers death. I was a young boy, 10 , when I found her lifeless body on the floor of our shitty apartment. Her skin cold, her lips purple, an overdose. I found her dead, and for awhile I blamed myself for it. Like I wasn't good enough, for her to not turn to drugs, that she needed drugs more than she needed me, her own son. She left me, and the pain of her death hunted me for awhile, but you can't blame yourself. It isn't your fault, just like my mothers death wasn't my fault. Bad things happen in this life, but it's up to us to decide weather or not we let it effect us, and I've been a victim to my past for too long - Letting it drive me, and consume me, but  you Serenity, have brought light into even the darkest parts of my heart. And I thank you for that. You have brought me back to life, you. And I know it's hard, I hurt too. But baby, I will do everything in my power to make you feel alive again. To bring you back to life, the same way you've brought me back. And it won't be easy, I know that - but I promise I will, okay?" I wipe her tears away with my fingers, tracing her cheeks with the tips of my thumb.

"Do you trust me?" I whisper

She nods her head softly, not taking her eyes off of mine.

"Then trust, that we'll get through this together. You and I"

I watch as Hope spark her eyes, like a wave, a fresh spark of hope. I press my lips against her, solidifying my promise to her, in a kiss. A kiss of promise, a kiss of faith, a kiss of hope. A kiss to our beginning to our forever.

"Together" She vowed.

And in that vow laid our hearts.