Teach Me To Live (OUAT//Peter Pan)

Chapter six

I didn't even take time to see who I had bumped in to.

There was a second of hesitation, it was as if the person who grabbed me was waiting for me to try and fight back- but I was too afraid. I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack, all my limbs were frozen and breathing was becoming harder and harder.

 Before I knew it all of the boys were on me. They had me pinned to the ground within seconds. They made a point of punching and kicking me. They wanted to make sure I understood that I had lost.

 I looked up in all of this craziness and saw none other than Felix. He had been the one to catch me.  Any chance I had at trusting him disintegrated.

"Game over." Pan's voice rang over all of our hard breathing, instantly all of the boys took their hands off me as I jumped to me feet and tried to compose myself.

"Interesting move you pulled back their, using the vine to swing off of the tree. But alas, you were caught, in a record time I must add. You're smart Alessia, but I'm afraid your fighting skills are equivalent to that of a child." Pan smirked, and the lost boys let out hushed laughter. I could feel my face turning red, had I really done that bad?

 As Pan spoke he didn't look at me. He looked down on me. It only increased my suspicion that Pan was on the other side of sanity.

Just as fast as it had appeared his smirk vanished and he was serious.

"Everyone back to bed, we have a long day tomorrow... training starts at 7am."

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Later that night I sat in my hammock mad at myself. 

Why didn't I fight back?

  Stupid Alessia. What is wrong with you?

It was about an hour later when I finally drifted to sleep. But even my dreams were not a place of comfort and safety. 

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I sat alone in a white room, I was wearing an all white dress. I felt alone... but I wasn't. When I looked up I saw someone dressed in all black approaching me...her face was blurry.

"What is wrong with you Alessia?" Her voice was like venom. 

"Is this about losing the game?" I was bewildered, afraid, and felt tears brimming my eyes. Why was I here?

"No you stupid girl, this is about losing your life."

 I only felt confused

 "You're young, beautiful, and have all the opportunities in the world yet you've huddled in a shell your whole life... too afraid to taste life-

I pity you."

I was offended by what she said and I wanted to scream back, to tell her she's wrong... but in the deepest parts of my heart I knew what she was saying was true.

I had lived life according to my fear, to my anxiety.

"You're even too afraid to talk back to me." The girl let out a scoff. Then, brought up her hand and snapped her fingers.

When I opened my eyes it was daytime. I wanted to take time to think about my dream and what it meant but as I looked around I saw that the lost boys were up and getting ready.

I then remembered what today was...

today was my first day of training.